my life. my story.

怎么只能在爱里微加幸福?

2012-02-10T15:16:00.001+08:00

不知不觉中, 我们拖拖拉拉的也过快8个月了. 事情还是没怎样. 我们两都选着逃避. 我也已经搞不清我们到底是什么身分了. 这样的日子好难过. 不知该高兴或伤心. 我真不懂为何还保留这段也许无法再能象从前一样的感情. 放手却心好痛, 坚持却觉得自己好傻. 我真怕我会很后悔. 我真怕我无法开始另一段新的感情.

想起我们, 自己却掉了眼泪. 总觉得自己好白痴又为了你而哭. 我真的很想大哭一场. 心好痛. 看着你, 就想起你所说的谎言, 你所做的事. 我不敢面对你. 可能是我不会面对你吧. 我选着离开, 但你选着坚持. 我很害怕当我回心转意的时候, 你却决定放手了. 我无法再接受多一刀了.

看我们两的照片, 心总觉得酸酸的. 我问我自己, 我们为何会这样呢? 我不断的怪自己. 或许吧, 这段距离也许能让一切一了百了.

谢谢你一路的忍耐. 对不起, 给不到你所要得.
谢谢这个女人已替了我来陪伴你.

一个人在这里, 真的好难过日子. 只好能忍着不在朋友的面前掉眼泪.

告诉自己, '刘玲施! 你是能的!' :)

A picture paints a thousand words.

2012-02-07T05:22:00.000+08:00

It hurts when I look at our photos. How I wish we could be the same as in the photos.

All of our photos reminds me of how happy we were before. But now, it isn't the same anymore.

好几次, 我们抱着彼此都是想要哭.

My First Thanksgiving.

2011-12-17T04:33:00.001+08:00

Greetings! If you're wondering where have I been, well, where and what can I do besides studying? :( Sad life I know. If anyone decides to be an engineer and studying in the States, think twice. Anyway, leave the sad life aside. How was your Thanksgiving? Mine went awesome because I went shopping! :D Yes, I spent a lot and I'm broke. I didn't get much for myself, but as for my family members, you guys are lucky. I went San Marcos and San Antonio, which is about 8 hours drive from where I am. San Marcos Premium Outlets is the third largest outlet in US so it is really big. The brand you can think of, it's there! To say cheap, definitely it is cheap! Comparing not only dollar to dollar, even after conversion for currency, it is still cheap! And yes, I bought a lot. Bags, glasses, shirts, shoes...and the list goes on. :) Enough said, pictures time!

For San Antonio, River Walk is the most famous place in there. We spent one night there. Below are some pictures I took.

River Walk map

the magic mirror

Ducklings everywhere!

The Undertaker

Hooters o.0

The view

The River Taxi

And these are the views when I ride on the boat.

The port

the group without Jeremy

The art there is made from small little color tiles.

As for San Marcos, not much time for pictures. We shopped from 9pm to 7am. Black Friday is awesome! :)

If you think that this is a crowd, you're wrong. It's the queue to enter Coach. :D

this is only the first car's boot.

this is the second car's boot

these are from only the girls.

Well, do you think I had an awesome time? ;) I practically shopped till I dropped!

Got to know some new friends during this trip. Overall, I had an awesome and great time! :) It's a new experience for me too to be shopping from midnight til the next morning. I will definitely give it another try again next time.

Since now is the end of Fall 2011 semester, I will be free to post more updates till winter break is over! Till then, chaoz! :D

I'm Just A Nobody.

2011-10-28T14:25:00.000+08:00

Probably I'm just a nobody. I tried in many ways to get back what I owned but I don't know why it just didn't work. Probably I should try committing suicide. I think that is when you will give a look on me and care for a moment and leave me after you're tired of it.

I really feel useless and dumb. Trust are filled with lies, faith are filled with fake emotions and promise are just wind that just come and go in seconds.

Well, it's dumb to even say the word "suicide". But at times, I understand for why people chose suicide than facing it.

I think I should go to bed and stop thinking. :)

I'm still alive!

2011-10-26T07:55:00.001+08:00

I tried to update my blog last 2 weeks but I didn't complete typing. So here it goes today!

It has been 2 months since I last updated and also it has been 2 months since I'm in the States. I'm still alive here, no worries about that. I didn't post much about my life here. Studying here is pretty hectic so I don't have much time to relax. Even if I do have time, I just wanna rest and not sitting down in front of the laptop to think what to write in my blog. :)

Today, I chose to update my blog is not because that I'm free, I'm feeling totally down today which I got no idea why either. :( It's just a sudden feeling that rush to me this morning when I woke up. I told one of my seniors, he said it's normal at times. As we are living alone outside in a foreign world, we don't have anyone here and all by ourselves. During the period when you stress with assignments or exams coming up and you don't know where to go and who to talk to. Friends are busy with their things too and you wouldn't want to bother them. Family, well, you wouldn't want them to worry. As for boyfriend, well, probably the distance is causing problems too.

I'm lucky enough to have seniors here that took well care of me. From studies to choices, even to personal problems. I was having problems the other day where I broke down, everyone of them send me a personal message touched my heart. "Hope you're alright. If there's anything we can do, please let us know. Outside here, friends are family. We'll be there for you." That is really nice of them.

This week, I've got 3 tests, 3 days continuously. Even though there are tests, there will also be assignments due. Life is great as an engineer. All I ever did since I came here was study, study and study. As for business major students, all they do is party, party and party. The stress here is so enormous that you don't even know what to do besides studying when you have time. To enter the professional school in OSU, a 3.0 GPA will not guarantee you a place. Quota per year for students to enter professional school is only 100. Do the math and study your nuts out. If you think that is ridiculous, what about knowing that only 35% of the people manage to graduate out of here. Awesome, isn't it? :)

I've changed my major into a dual major, Mechanical and Aerospace Engineering (MAE). I'm just in sophomore year where I'm far behind already. If I succeed in going into professional school without any delay, I may graduate in 2014. So, wish me luck!

I'll try to update as frequent as possible!

Trust and Faith.

2011-08-21T00:57:00.000+08:00

I seriously hate it every single time when you just pretend that nothing ever happened. Saying out all the things I don't wanna know. Seriously, is that it? Don't try to be stupid and say I would snap because of the truth. I've done my role as who you wanted me to be. If I still couldn't satisfy your needs, I'm sorry.

No matter where am I, FML.

I can't do anything, can I? :) Teach me what to do besides having trust and faith.

Greetings from USA!

2011-08-20T06:41:00.002+08:00

Greetings from the States. :) I'm doing fine here, beside being homesick and missing my friends and family, I'm overall fine.

I finally touched down here in Oklahoma on the August 13 after sitting 24 hours of flight. 2 transits, 5 hours each. In total, 34 hours. I'm dead when I touched down. Reached Oklahoma City, I have to hop in a car for another an hour and half to reach Stillwater, where my university is located. GOSH! Since then, my backbone has been killing me. Salonpas saved me a little. :)

I'm in here for a week now. Got to know my seniors and some new friends. The orientation here is super boring. From what Desmond says, international orientation sucks. HAHA! The food is here is OK for me. Nice food here are fast food. Asian food is like those normal hawker food back in Malaysia. All of their food are salty and sweet. GOSH! Now I know why are they fat and have so much problems with their body system. The great thing here is, the Subway here serve pork! :D They got more choices here, not as boring as Malaysia. Overall, the food here is not as good as what we have back home. I'm just here for a week, so it's still too early to judge.

I went for an interview to work on campus just now. It's so different from the interview we have. :) It's a new experience for me tho. Let's just cross our fingers that I can get the job to cover my expenses. They pay really good money. I work on the front desk in stadium dining, they pay like 8.50 dollars an hour. Not forgetting, I'm getting my tips too. I have to work at least 10 hours on game days, so let's just do the math. Convert that back to Malaysian Ringgit, it's like RM 300 a day at least. Hope I get to work more hours next time.

The things here are cheap if we don't convert back to Malaysian Ringgit. :) I spent less than 300 dollars to get everything. Laundry bag, shoes, clothes, kettles, bed sheets, pillow, electronics; the necessity you need to survive here is cheap! Except for the food if we do the conversion. HAHA!

I met my housemates, both from Tulsa, Oklahoma. I don't have a roommate yet, so it's great to have a room all by yourself. I need to socialize more. I want to find more hot 'ang moh' so I can look forward to something. :P Sorry baby, you know I still love you the most! ♥

I think that's about my life here currently. I'll try to upload some pictures soon. My classes are starting on the August 22. Hope I could cope. Gonna make my parents proud. :) That's bout it. Heading to the gym to make me look hotter. :P I'll try to update more often!

PS: The weather here is killing me! It's 5.30pm and it's like 12-1pm where the sun is scorching hot out there back in Malaysia! OH GOD, KILL ME!

Sleepless Night.

2011-08-09T04:20:00.000+08:00

Another sleepless night.

I'm feeling tired but just couldn't go to bed. There's just too much going on in my brain.

How to stop your brain from thinking? Seriously, FML.

Since That Day...

2011-08-06T04:54:00.001+08:00

Since that day, I cry myself to sleep almost every night.
Since that day, I don't know who can I talk to.
Since that day, I don't know what to believe anymore.
Since that day, I never have enough sleep.
Since that day, I blame myself every day.
Since that day, I tried everything to change.
Since that day, I don't have anymore self-confidence.
Since that day, I don't know who I am anymore.
Since that day, I put on a mask to face everyone including you.
Since that day, I pretend to be who I used to be.
Since that day, I lost everything.
Since that day, I understand.
Since that day, I believed everything will be different.
Since that day, I lost faith.
Since that day, I'm a different person.
Since that day, I'm lost.
Since that day, my heart never stopped bleeding.

It hurts me really bad. From that day, I can understand why people chose to be so stupid by choosing suicide because of such things.

Every single word you say, every single thing you do, I doubt. Can I trust you? Even if everything you told me was the truth, but you chose to lie from the very beginning. Every other things that you do behind me, your actions and vague explanations full with excuses and lies, tell me, what can I do to really trust you?

A friend asked me, '最基本的信任都没有，你觉得你自己还能和他在一起吗?' Honestly, I don't know how to answer. Everyone asked me, 'So, what you gonna do now?' I really don't know what to do. But still, you still chose to lie and hide the truth from me.

Finally, I tried my very best to forget everything. I tried my best to not care. I tried my best to not ask. Because I wanted to try giving us another chance. I gave you chances after chances to prove to me, but one after one, all I ever gotten back was disappointment and lies. I put in every effort I could to bring us back. I put in my every effort to show you I can try to accept everything that you did. What did I get in return? You come telling me in anger it was just a sudden crush that come and go just like before. Are you sure you want to compare the feelings of before and after we got together? A clap doesn't sound with only one hand.

I listened to you. I quietly, calmly, holding back all my feelings, listening to you. All I want is just what every other girl wants. Have you ever tried listening carefully to what I'm trying to say? In return, you fell asleep, you ignored me, you divert everything I say, and you even yelled at me saying, '你要知道真相来干吗，你知道了又一直哭，知道来作么？你问了很爽吗？' Why can't I know the truth? Why can't I ask? Is that the reason for why you kept lying to me again and again? I'm sorry that I can't hold my feelings. I'm sorry that I asked too much. I'm sorry that all I can do is just cry. Tell me, what can I do besides feeling so badly hurt and not being able to cry?

你问我为什么，我说没有事。我只想你知道，不是我不要告诉你，我不懂的怎样。我已经什么事再也不敢说了。因为你那番话告诉了我我再也没那个必要让你知道我的心在想什么，有多痛。我很想你知道，我接受不到。我不能不去想。每个晚上我只好哭累了，去睡，希望第二天就没事了。我真的不敢去想当我真的走了，会怎样？你口口声声的说不会再有第二次，但凡事有第一次就会有第饿二次。我每天看着你那么的高兴，我也配合。你我知道已经是不同了。我明白你现在所做的一切。我不怪你，我真的明白。这一切，我只好能怪我自己。你要说我扮大方，我要你知道我没有那个意思。

我知道我所说的这一切，有一位小姐会懂的她是我们的问题，但请问这位小姐，你觉得你真的很好吗？如过你有当做我是你的朋友的话，你一早就会散。关心朋友？过线了吧？废话少说。我们都是女人，没那个必要来说废话。我服了你，你赢我输。我知道你有读我的blog, but so what? Do ponder and start asking yourself, AS MY FRIEND, was it even necessary to do what you did? It's so kind of you is it? I'm a lady too, miss. Don't tell me you're just being friendly. I know I shouldn't have said all these to you, just want you to know to learn the limits of being a friend and HOW TO BE A FRIEND. If you think I'm being over sensitive, try putting you in my shoes and think for what have YOU done with MY boyfriend. so, ME, SENSITIVE? 希望你的良心过的去for你所做的一切。

而你宝贝，我有考虑过该不该publish这一个post, 因为所有人都会知道。我知道你爱面子，但对不起，我不是要丢你的面子，是我不懂还有那里我可以发泄了。你觉得我可做的过分了，那对不起。至少，我说的都是真话。真的很希望你能好好的去为了我们想一想，已经两个月了，你证明了什么？Do you even want to maintain us? Please do remember for how we started from friends to being a couple. I may be a bitchy girlfriend these few months, but that is my effort to save us. What about you?

I can let the whole world know I'm stupid, I'm a fool, I'm a bitch. I may be over the limits for saying all the above, but I believed I have the right to be angry. If not, tell me right in my fucking face. If you guys have anything to say, please leave your comments at the comment section below. Thank You. :)

P/S: For those who only reads from my side of story, please don't judge. I don't want people to think I'm asking for support. xD I just want to let out my feelings only. But, I don't mind suggestions for what can I do!

Ctrl + Alt + Del

2011-08-06T00:36:00.001+08:00

How I wish I could have a DELETE button connected to my brain. Just like the computers; browse folders, useless files, delete, empty recycle bin. *POOOOFFF!* FOREVER GONE! How amazing. :D There's always a but, so, but we created computers to substitute us.

I tried to create a DELETE button for myself too, but I failed. :( What can I do to erase certain things I don't wish to have? I've tried each and every way, none of it work. Oh well...

Well, it only happens if there is only if. :)

问世间，情是何物？

2011-08-05T01:18:00.000+08:00

当两个人在一起比较久，女的会越来越爱男的，男的越来越随便。
男的会说女老是胡思乱想，女就说男已经变了不像以前那么宠她。
其实大家都没变，只是时间变了。
因为彼此关系变亲密了，习惯对方，所以不会再像热恋那样，所以女的会胡想。
无论如何请不要对爱情偷懒，否则只有平淡.然后矛盾争吵再到分手。

难到又是女人的错吗？或者是双方都有错？咳~ 像猪八戒每次所说的，‘问世间，情是何物？’。

能不能不爱了？

Date Me Now Or Never! :D

2011-07-22T00:49:00.000+08:00

WOW! 2 months without updates. Anyway, I've been busy with my preparation to the States. Shopping, shopping and SHOPPING! :D In addition, I also was heartbroken by certain issues so wasn't in the mood to update too. No worries peeps, it won't be a long post. :)

For this short semester, I took Calculus 3 only. It wasn't as tough as I thought. I was aiming for an A for this subject, but it's my last semester here, I didn't really study that hard to earn it. So, a B or B+ is satisfactory. Most universities in US will reset the GPA you have back in here, but unlucky for me, I have to carry forward. I'm studying my ass off to pull up my current GPA. This is one of the reason for why I can't party that hard. :( Since now my paper is over, let's get the party started!

Anyhoos, I left 3 weeks here, and believe me, time just pass like that. GRAB YOUR TIME TO DATE ME NOW OR NEVER! I might not be back anytime soon. :) I'll update again soon.

Happy Belated Birthday To Me!

2011-05-06T02:19:00.005+08:00

I used to spend time blog hopping last time to keep myself updated with my friends. I haven't been doing much lately until just now and I realized I haven't been in touch with them for quite some time already. Hello high school friends and people in the US, how are you guys doing? And YES, I'm missing all of you guys back here. :) Jin Ying demanded for an update about my life. Well, Jin Ying, here you go.

When I first came to INTI back in January 2009, I do not have friends. Pity! I only have classmates and knew their existence but I don't hang out with them. I do not know the existence of CAE office until like don't know which semester. I do not hang out in there. I took a semester break which was a mistake and I lost much precious time. When I got back, I started hanging out in the CAE and got myself more friends. I got closer to Boyce, Eric, Chew Lian and Andy and also made a new close friend through them, Pang Rhae Yaenn. Just have to put your full name laa, Yaenn Pang. xD

Even though we just got together for like 5 months only, it felt like years of friendship bonded already. It feels nice when you know there's someone out there that appreciates us for who we are. :) So, this crazy friends of mine together with Wei Yeen and Joey, gave me a surprise on a day before my birthday. I knew something was up when they started being all so mystery with whisper and eye signals everywhere. Just love them much! Thanks for everything. The surprise was a small one, but it's definitely a memorable one. It's a pity that we have to leave early when we're about to get high. I will definitely want more of such outings again.

The next day, which was my birthday, didn't go too well. Long story short, I was upset that boyfie just treat the day like every other day. Broke his promises again. So what if it is my birthday? I don't know if it ever goes through his mind that it might be the last birthday I could spend with him until maybe like 4 years later. I had a fight with him and he has got the guts to tell me that I broke my promise to not fight with him anymore. Well, don't wanna bring it up again. He "so-called" made it up at night but spent most of his time drinking with another bunch of his friends than spending it with me. Disappointed much of course. Now, at least I know there's no need to put much hopes in any occasions anymore. And I don't even know why I waste so much time on planning what to do for his birthday and our anniversary for another 3 months. -.- I don't even think he cares. If you read this, there's no need for you to reply because I know what you're gonna say. But thanks for your efforts in trying. Definitely thanks for people who came and celebrated with me that night.

Anywayy, screw him and time for photos! :)

the senoritas

the senors

the crazy ones

♥

sis. me. mum

That is how I celebrated my birthday. A simple celebration but a great one to me.

Finals is finally over and that is the reason for why I'm blogging as I've promised. I've got no say to how I've done my finals but I really do hope I could get good results. *prays hard* Hope next semester will be as great as this semester. Can't wait for our Penang trip. :D

Why is it that when I'm about to love college, it's time for me to fly already? :(

Unexplainable Feeling

2011-05-01T04:38:00.001+08:00

YES, the kind of feeling where you couldn't explain. I don't know what's going through in my mind and I have got this feeling of insecurity surrounding me. It's fucking annoying when this feeling comes by. I will start thinking about non-sensible things and it makes me awake throughout the night thinking about it. Exam stress maybe? And because currently I have this feeling that I couldn't explain, I'm just here to say I have this unexplainable feeling.

So, Good Night! It's already 4.40 AM. Let's just hope I get to wake up tomorrow to do my revisions. :)

It's an update. HAHA! And yes, you have just wasted 5 minutes of your life reading this.

It's Better Late Than Never.

2011-04-23T05:11:00.004+08:00

Hello readers, I'm back. :) I apologize for my long return. Today, which I still consider as a Friday, is the last day of classes for the semester. What does this means? FINALS IN 1 WEEK! Good side of it is, FREE FROM ESSAY WRITING! I took ENL 102 (English Composition II) which was a torture where I need to write an essay every week! It has been sucking most of my life away and it is also part of the reason for why I didn't update for quite some time. I got fed up in writing essays. But, I'm back!

In my previous post, I promised to post about how I celebrated my Valentine's Day. I know it has passed 2 months already, but a promise is a promise. :D

Howard has got tests coming up in the next few days after Valentine's if I'm not mistaken. He haven't study yet and hoped to postpone this special day to another day. He asked me if it's possible, and I said it in a not-so-happy way which I meant it jokingly but he took it seriously. So, he called up this place in Putrajaya and got us a reservation. :) That's very sweet of him. He wouldn't want to cancel the reservation even though I went upset seriously this time. So, we end up in the place we did not know it existed. It has a nice ambiance but the food was off track from my expectation. The most memorable thing I can still remember was, there are more Malays celebrating this occasion even though they said this day is against their religion. Well, well, well...

Anyway, I'll stop my typing and I'll let few of my pictures take over. Enjoy!

♥

Even though we got conned for the pricing of our food, but it was a great night and a memorable one. I love it. ♥ Thanks love for everything. Love you much. Hope we get to celebrate this day too next year, but in the States. I'll be waiting for you! :)

I'm off to bed now. That stupid rooster starting to cock and the birds are chirping already. For those who're awake, Good Morning to you, and those who're like me who has just got home, Good Night! :) My next update will be in another 2 weeks. I promise!

Oh wait! Before that, Good Luck and All The Best to everyone in your finals! Turn your nerd mode on and study hard like me. Gonna aim for a 3.0 GPA this semester. Wish me luck too!

Delayed.

2011-02-27T09:29:00.003+08:00

Sorry for the late updates. I was kind of lazy to log in and do typing. Plus, assignments and tests were on the way and so, I was kind of busy then. So, how did your CNY went? Mine will be greater if classes did not start so soon. Due to that, I couldn't really go for house hopping. Plus, my dad was sick the whole CNY. Hence, I got lesser 'ang paos'. Lesser, as in seriously, RM500-800 lesser. -.- In addition to that, I wasn't in the luck of gambling this year. Lost a pretty big sum already. OUCH. Pocket burnt, heart bleeds. But, it's only once a year right?

On the previous post, I mentioned about the Air Asia cadet test. I went for it and the tests were so easy to the point that I did not know how to do. Funny, isn't it? The tests were all based on Form 4&5 syllabus, which I've forgotten almost everything. Even though I took up to Physics 2 and Calculus 2 in college, I couldn't apply what I've studied. The most challenging one was the IQ test. Out of 20 questions, I could only answer like 10? And I can't guarantee my answers are correct. In conclusion, I failed the test. :(

On the bright side, I can now focus more in my current studies. :D I've done my TOEFL test and gotten a score of 92. I'm kinda satisfied with the results. Some say it's high and some say it's good enough. As long as it passed the minimum requirement of the universities I'm applying to. Now, I'm thinking whether to go on August 2011 or January 2012. My results are not that good, and I'm trying very hard to pull up my CGPA. If I were to fly August, then I will have to use this semester's results. But I doubt my results. :S What if the uni I wanted to go reject me? BAHHHHHHHH!! Screw it. Learnt my lesson for playing too hard.

That's about it. Coming up post, Valentine's Day. Now, off to Puchong for 'dim sum'. YEAH! :D See ya guys!

Happy Chinese New Year!

2011-02-02T17:15:00.000+08:00

A friend of 13 years of mine left to Perth, Australia yesterday. He is an asshole, but I'll definitely miss him loads. I don't know when we'll be meeting again, but I do hope we will have the chance. We kinda expected him to cry, but he's strong enough to hold back his tears. Stay strong bastard! So, everyone's leaving to different parts of the world, and only faith will meet us back again. Everyone out there, all the best to you and take good care of yourself! :)

AND, the long awaited moment I'm waiting for, and tomorrow is it! It's the Chinese New Year. ANG PAO, ANG PAO, AND MORE ANG PAO! :D I think that's what we're waiting for isn't it? No?

MORE ANG PAO = MORE $$ = MORE THINGS TO GET

It's the metal bunny year this year round. Here, I wish everyone good health and a prosperous year ahead. HAPPY CHINESE NEW YEAR! HUAT AHHH!!

新年快乐

心想事成

身体健康

万事如意

恭喜恭喜!

Hello 2011!

2011-01-26T01:30:00.001+08:00

*WARNING! LONG POST AHEAD.*

A late welcome for the year 2011. It's still January, I'm not that late either. So, many events took place during these few weeks. The first week was pretty hectic. We surprised Shu Yen on her birthday, kinda surprised Sean with my presence in his house on his birthday, and went Ipoh with Howard.

Shu Yen's birthday

I practically was on diet during the time, but it's Ipoh! How can you not feel sorry for your stomach if you don't eat the food? :P Our main purpose of this trip was food. EAT EAT EAT! FOOD FOOD AND MORE FOOD! Well, even if it's only for 2D1N, I enjoyed the whole journey.

Hello Ipoh! :D

Beansprout Chicken Rice (Restoran Onn Kee)

Dim Sum breakfast! (Foh San Dim Sum)

Soya Bean and Tau Fu Fah (Funny Mountain)

Famous Dry Curry Mee (Restoran Yee Fat)

Pork Satay (Restoran Kong Heng)

I don't know what it's called in English. Wu Kok, famous in Bidor.

♥

That pretty much sums up my first week. As on the second week, my classes begun. For this semester, I took Differential Equations (DE), Introduction to Linear Algebra, and English Composition II. It's pretty hectic enough already. Gonna study hard and get good results for all 3 subjects.

A week after classes begun, I attended a small gathering. :) I just realized the group photo is not up yet. So, just a sneak peek first.

I'm selected to go for Air Asia Cadet Pilot Assessment Stage 1. It falls on the first day of Chinese New Year. I don't really mind if it's on the first day, but it's like from 8am to 5pm. ONE WHOLE DAY. -.- It's like so racist that they didn't want Chinese to make it. At first I hesitated to go, but with the support from my friends and family, and also boyfie, I decided to go for it. :D Thanks for all the comments. I appreciate it.

I just finished my first ENL102 essay. It's 1.30am already, and I've got class at 8am. FML. Turning in now!

PS: CNY is around the corner! WOHOOO!!

PPS: I can't wait til Friday. :D

Goodbye 2010!

2010-12-31T17:59:00.001+08:00

This will be the last post for the year 2010. It's the last day of the year already. How fast time flies. :) I'm not going to write draggy long appreciation post which people do all the time. Maybe a short one at the end of the post.

Every year, people come out with their resolution for the new year, but til the last day of the year, you only realized you've done nothing yet on the resolution list? HAHA! So, why bother making one? Anyway, I'm making one now. Not those super long ones, a short list is enough. Just hope I could accomplish the missions.

MY 2011 RESOLUTIONS

1. Go on diet. I must lose some fats before flying off! :)

2. Spend more time with my family.

3. Spend more time with my babe.

4. Stop being an ass.

5. Study hard and get good results.

What about your resolutions?

Now, the appreciation part. Start with my friends. You guys came into my life and left huge foot prints there. Brought a big impact in my life. :) Thank you guys for everything! I'm really sorry if I've hurt you in any way. For those who is in US or will be there soon, be patient. I'll be there soon! :D

As for mum and dad, sis and Darwin, thank you for supporting me. Thank you for being there for me. I've grown up. Don't you guys worry about me anymore. I promise to study hard when I'm in US. :) I will not disappoint you. I love you all! Without you all, I wouldn't be who I am today. I'm grateful for having you guys as my family members. ♥

Last, my babe. I've got so much to tell you and I don't know where to start from. I've concluded everything to only 3 words, 我爱你. ♥ Thank you for everything babe! Even though your paragraph is the shortest, but I hope you know it meant much more than that.

So, have you guys made any plans for tonight? :) Well, I've got no plans yet. Hope I could have one before the clock strikes 12. No matter what you plans gonna be, I here wish all of you a great year ahead! Happy New Year!

Merry Christmas!

2010-12-26T02:15:00.000+08:00

HO HO HO! Merry Christmas!

I enjoy both my Christmas Eve and Christmas. As usual, everywhere is crowded and there's nowhere to go. As usual, we know the situation on the eve and the exact day but still we make plans to go somewhere where it's crowded. HAHA! I guess that's just human nature?

On the eve, Howard and I were looking for plans to celebrate the eve but no one has any plans. So, we went over to In n Out Cafe as usual to have our dinner. Then, we continued our celebration there. :) The pictures will continue my story.

Conclusion, I had a great Christmas Eve with my friends, family and also my beloved. ♥

As for Christmas night, Howard took me to Pyramid to have our dinner. He wanted to take me to this place where it's design is based on bathroom concept. We thought of having our desert there so we went BBQ Plaza for our main course. A Malay couple walk into BBQ Plaza to eat, where that place is a NON-HALAL restaurant. :D Either we mistaken them for being Muslims or they just have the courage to do so or they just love pork? Anyway, we didn't manage to sit on the toilet bowl for our desert as they're doing their closing already. :( better luck next time.

I had a great Christmas time this year. What about yours?

Feelings And Relationships.

2010-12-21T02:04:00.000+08:00

You see, feelings is a funny thing. You can really love someone to death, or you can really hate a person to the lungs. It's funny isn't it? Just like how many people hated Justin Bieber. Honestly, what has he done to you? You don't even know the guy. Is it just because he's popular, he's good looking, he's younger than you, he can sing better than you and he can dance better than you? I don't get what the hell he did that made him deserve that. Well, I'm not a big fan of him, I'm just curious. :) Like I've said, it's a funny thing.

I watched 'House' just now. That episode is mainly about relationships. Commitment, trust, honesty, loyalty. I'm pretty sure all that is needed in a relationship for it to work. The patient in this episode is having an open marriage relationship with her husband which she had sex with other men and her husband knew and allowed it. Taub, one of the doctors actually brought up this topic with his wife. His wife accepted the idea at first but she regretted for making a silly decision by allowing her husband to sleep with another woman. She went and look for him and talked about it. After all the confessions about how much Taub loves his wife, having her is enough and all the bullshit things guys say to girls to cover up the 'goddamnit' they have in their mind, at the end of the episode, Taub STILL went out with the girl.

Can we really trust men after all? I doubt. But funny thing, WE WOMEN chose to trust them. So, does this make us women look stupid? :)

Well, all these are just my opinions. These kind of movies always make my doubts towards boyfie increase. HAHA! Don't worry, I'm not having any problems in my relationship. Or maybe just YET. If it were to happen to me, wish me luck then.

So how much can you really trust what your man says? ;D

I Need Sleeping Pills

2010-12-20T04:48:00.000+08:00

Since the holiday started, I've been having trouble sleeping early. I can now imagine what will I be in another month when I have most of my classes starting at 8am. Start killing me already. Gotta practice myself before it's too late!

Before the holiday starts, I've been planning destinations to go during my holidays. But, I came up with nothing. Even if I do, it doesn't work out at all. Simple reason, financial problem. What else? I'm not a rich brat, so if I were to go somewhere, I gotta save. I didn't save up much yet, so travelling becomes a problem now. :( BOO! Even though my mum allows me to go where I wanna go, but I doubt she would pay all of the expenses for me. Anyway, I was planning to go Ipoh, Penang, Langkawi, Singapore and Bali. Too bad I could only choose 2 or maybe 3 places. TADA! And I've decided to go Bali. The plan of saving up will start on January. Together with the extra income during CNY, I guess I will have enough. So Bali, WAIT FOR ME! :D As for the holidays I'm having now, I'm going either Langkawi or Ipoh. If we couldn't find sufficient people to go Langkawi, so Ipoh it is. If any of you would like to join, please let me know!

Hmm, I wonder what can I do so I could sleep?

WOOOT!

2010-12-15T01:57:00.001+08:00

I got my results today. I passed all of them. I'm in good mood. =)

Even though my results aren't that great, but I'm happy that I do not need to retake any of the subjects. CGPA is still low, but I think I could manage it next sem. I will definitely try my very best to ace my subjects. Sorry mama to let you down with such results, but I will definitely try harder next sem. I promise. :)

宝贝,
我知道你对你的成绩很不满意, 不过别伤心! 我们一起努力! 成绩不是一切的, 知道吗? 读书不厉害并不代表不能出人头地. ♥ 我支持你! 不要在伤心了好吗?

As you can see, I have a title for this post. YEAP, I will start giving my posts a title from today onwards. I will also try to improve my English writing starting from here. Let's just hope it works.

Realized my blog is ~~a little~~ quite dull, so I will try my best to update it with pictures. Maybe I will also try to update more frequently to see if it helps me to improve my writing. :)

Holidays with nothing to do. I felt pretty useless tho. Hope I could come out with something to do. D-E-T-E-R-M-I-N-A-T-I-O-N. First thing first, I will try to wake up early everyday. So, gotta turn in now. Hope you guys enjoyed your holiday!

2010-12-13T01:53:00.000+08:00

一切都变了, 一切都不一样了.

是什么让一切都变成这样?

久了, 累了, 淡了. 或许吧.

算了. 要来得自然就会来. 想得多反而伤脑筋. :)

今天就到此为止.

2010-11-29T03:48:00.000+08:00

OMG. my blog is really dead. i wonder if anyone still reads it. :) i'll still update for the sake of updating.

many events had been going on in these 2 months. too much to blog about. i went Malacca again. but this time, i stayed over. rented a house there, pretty comfortable. a home away from home. if you guys were to go over Malacca and wish to stay in a home which is cheaper, i intro you Melaka Comfort Homestay. google it and you'll get some results. so i went with a bunch of high school friends. really enjoyed the trip. but i guess, everyone knows bout it through my facebook already.

last month, my dog gave birth to 4 puppies. :) 2 males, 2 females. love them all. mum said the puppies were to give away as we couldn't afford another 4 at home. i was pretty reluctant to give away but we've got no choice. just hope the best of them from their new owners soon.

finals is finally over. i'm free til next year. but been busy planning outings and trips so i get to enjoy Malaysia before i go over to the States. i've decided what field to major in and which uni to go to already. Oklahoma State University, my first option. let's just hope for the best for my results. really trying very hard to pull up my CGPA.

just a simple update. will try to update more frequently. but i doubt anyone still reads it. good day everyone!

2010-10-05T16:32:00.000+08:00

sorry for the lack of updates. i have been really really busy lately with assignments, test, quiz, test and assignments. every sem has it's hectic, busy period. the period is here and everyone is busy like crazy. haha!

since, i'm in the toilet passing motion without anything to do except smelling the aroma, i'll update a little about today. :) i've never felt so relax as today, and i don't know why. as you all know, i parked my car near Sri KL. this morning, i saw a young mum holding her daughter's hand and walk her to school. it reminds me of how my dad used to do that when i was little. together with the song played by the FM, it felt so right in the situation, so sweet that it kinda wet my eyes a little. :')

today is Tuesday, which is also known as 'Physics Day' for me. morning physics lab, afternoon physics class. only one subject on Tuesday. so usually on Tuesdays, i have lab class in the morning which ends early every time. so i got to wait for my friends for their class to over at 10am then breakfast. then, we'll chat til 12pm before going to class. today, instead of 'cannon-ing', we (Kwok Liang, Chun Kit, Mun Wait, Nicole and me) went CC for counter-strike. that's the only game i know how to play, so they have got no choice. :P MW slept pretty late last night and he's damn tired so we thought this might wake him up. indeed we did until we enter the class. XD

and during our break, for the first time, Ms. Jerry said she had to go downstairs to get something. so the class went a little wild with some gay-ness. :) then, we found out it's Ms. Jerry's birthday the next day, so we sang her a birthday song when she came back. we kinda lengthen our break for another 10 minutes. :D awesome! haha. you might say it looks like a normal boring day, but to me, i really find today, til now, is pretty awesome for me. :D let's see if anything awesome happens tonight. before that, enjoy this video taken today. :)

if you are wondering if it's the gay-ness in the class today, YEAP! this is what happened in class today. :D

2010-09-05T00:04:00.000+08:00

wake me up when September ends~ it's September already. gosh, how time flies?

this week, every student has got 1 week raya holiday in Malaysia. :D nice. no class, no test, no lectures. free for one whole week. any plans? who wanna date me? :) feel free to give me a call.

tomorrow, i will be going over to the Morib Beach in Banting. i went there once when i was young with my family. but tomorrow, i'll be joining a bunch of my friends there! :D i hope everything goes with the plan. can't wait to catch 'lala'. i hope there is still 'lala' for me to catch. will be leaving at 8am and due to us being Malaysians, i think we'll be having delays. but really hope we could have fun.

i'll blog about this trip on the next post. :) enjoy your holidays!

2010-08-31T04:02:00.000+08:00

i haven't been updating my blog lately. i really don't know what i'm busy at. you cay say college, but not really. assignments haven't really pile up yet, just study for each quizzes and tests. another part of it was, i seldom blog hop already. so, i seldom log into blogger which effects the updates in my blog. cut the crap.

today is Malaysia's Independence Day. our PM came up with a screwed up concept, 1 Malaysia, which didn't go any further than the society being more racist. seriously, what had he done when he became the Prime Minister? let's check the list, bombing his mistress! what did you do to that stupid principal? why didn't ISA catch her? she is threatening the security of our nation. she might trigger the bloody race war to be repeated. what actions did you do? NOTHING! try and see if that principal happens to be a Chinese or an Indian, just see what happens. you guys know the answer pretty well, need more to say? so called of '1 Malaysia'. conclusion, there's no 1 Malaysia or Independence Day for me this year. such disgrace.

this year's Merdeka Eve, me and Howard went over to my bro in law house to have a BBQ session. stuffed myself with the food there, and all the diets i've been doing flow down the drain. :'( gotta work hard in my dieting! suppose to have plans with Ethan and Yi Xia in Klang, but they ffk me to TTDI. so, plans canceled and we continue BBQ. that's how i celebrate the eve of so called 1 Malaysia Independence Day. what did you do?

2010-08-26T00:03:00.000+08:00

since babe is having supper with his mum, i'm kinda free with nothing to do, i guess i will update a short post now. :) i've got no class tomorrow, and Friday is a public holiday which gives me 4 days continuous without books. BUT, i've got tests, tests and tests right before the Raya holidays. i'm taking baby nephew to the doctor for injection tomorrow in the morning. can't wait to see him. :D

this is the 400th post. i'll update with something special? on Monday, it was the Hungry Ghost Festival. you can see most Chinese do pray at the roadside or in front of their houses. usually in this month of July in the lunar calendar, is considered as the 'ghost' month for the Chinese as the Hell gate opens for spirits to our world. most of the Chinese would not go anywhere or do anything which could bring them 'troubles'. they don't go out or even come back late. haha! funny thing is, it's the holy month for the Malays. XD ever wonder why do we have this day? i don't know if it's the real thing for what i'm about to say, but just enjoy the story lah! from what i know, in a certain layer of Hell, the spirits couldn't eat or drink anything. whatever they eat will turn out to be ashes right after they put into their mouth. they are so hungry until one day, Buddha came and grant a day for them where they can eat without turning what they eat into ashes. this is the day where the hungry spirits come to our world to seek for food. that is how this day came by. i don't know how true is this, but, it's pretty interesting! :D Chinese believed that by offering the spirits food may ward off their bad luck and bring good fortune ahead. some say, this is the day when Hell gate closes, where all the spirits that have been wandering around our world could go back to their world before the gate close. that is why in July in the lunar, Chinese do things carefully and try not to offend them.

as usual, on this day, we pray outside of our house. dad always buy alot of the joss papers which need an hour or more of our time to burn it. but this year, we just used around half an hour to finish out burning. the wind was strong so the fire was pretty fierce. plus, we have extra man power to help us too! :) really enjoyed this time of the year. and nope, there's nothing to be scared off as you didn't offend them. don't believe in some craps people say. everything comes out from us human only, there's no evidence to support them. HAHA! time passed fast, soon, we'll be rolling the glutinous rice flour. all these might be my last year to celebrate all this festival. :) i'm gonna enjoy it while i can before i go USA!

mum and dad kinda allow me to travel here and there without any objection. i guess that's a good thing. they know i won't be in Malaysia soon, so wherever i go, they just nod their head. :D good thing, but for my financial, it's a bad thing! :( i'm broke. saving money for the end of the year trips. hope dieting could help in saving more money. HAHA!

that's bout it. very tired with all the early mornings for 3 days straight. tomorrow another day too. oh, ENJOY THE 4 DAYS OF HOLIDAY PEEPS! take care.

2010-08-21T14:50:00.000+08:00

i forgotten to blog! sorry. :S

i don't know what to write. oh, i bought 3 dresses. going to get some heels probably later or next week. :)

yes, don't be surprise can? :P that's bout it. i honestly have loads to blog but just couldn't think of any now.

take care! :D

2010-08-16T00:25:00.000+08:00

i survived! OH YES PEOPLE, I DID! haha!

boyfie went away to Bali for 4 days, and HE'S BACK! yes yes yes! i can hear his voice already. i get to listen to his oh so sexy voice in the night before i go to bed. and tomorrow, i get to touch him, smell him, kiss him, hug him, bite him. whatever you can think of, i'm able to do it. :D i can't wait to see him. :)

i survived 4 days without him. do you know how much i miss him? i think you all do. :P

OK, that's the end of the post. gotta go have phone sex with boyfie. -.- HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA!

2010-08-13T01:17:00.000+08:00

short update.

boyfie went Bali already. coming back on Sunday, means i don't have him for 4 days. :( i hate you for dumping me here alone and didn't take me along with you!

1 day without him can kill me already. i miss his smell, his hands, his body, his kiss, his voice! damn. come back faster can? what will happen when i go over to the States? damn. don't wanna think about it. anyway, digi is being a bitch for not allowing me to activate his roaming line for him. BOO! always the smarter choice? in my ass la! -.-

anyway, went and sent Wen Chao off to the States just now. gonna miss you idiot. :) take care there! i shall see you very soon there. we had this weird conversation on our way back. haha! which brought much laughter into the quiet car. nice one. we shall continue it someday? XD

oh, boyfie called! :D at least i can hear his voice before i sleep. 3 more days, be patient bitch. :) good night world.

2010-08-10T00:40:00.001+08:00

难道我所做的这一切都不够吗? 难道我做的不够好吗?

对不起, 或许我是真的做不到. 我已经在努力了, 但却还是不够吧.

试过了. 失败了. 累了. 很想放弃. 我能吗? 说我笨, 我真的已经放不下了.

真希望有人能告诉我我那里做不好, 那里做不对. 有些事是不用讲的, 难道都感觉不到吗?

好伤心, 好心痛. 为什么会这样?

不要在去想了, 我还是去睡吧. 根本明早一起来都是一样的. :)

就只能每天告诉自己别放弃, 明天再来! 加油吧!

2010-08-07T02:00:00.002+08:00

it's about time for me to post about MTV World Stage 2010 Live In Malaysia. i got my tickets for FREE from a friend of Howard. we managed to stand around 10 meters away from the stage. jealous much? :P even though we stand so near, there's no squeezing in my zone. i heard many was being stepped and pushed at the back? anyways, thanks Ji Yung for the tickets. really appreciated it. i had fun in there. :D but, if there's a second chance for me, i will consider whether to go or not. the teenagers there, scary. they like never been to a concert before. OK, maybe i'm too old for all this already. and damn, i'm only 19.

so besides the rain and the delays, the performances were awesome. Tokio Hotel and Katy Perry rocked the concert! Bunkface and Wonder Girls not that rocking enough. seriously, compare Asians with the ang mohs, really big difference. i personally enjoyed Katy Perry's performance. i liked her last song, 'Peacock'. she's a wild lady! she threw the big ass cherry and cup cakes to the crowd. OMGEEE! i think she can get more wild but she can't get too wild because we are in MALAYSIA! -.- we didn't stay for the Wonder Girls extra performances after Katy Perry's cause we're tired of waiting. plus, it's already 1am. as for Tokio Hotel, the lead singer is so freaking gay. the postures, the talking, the walking, the way he wipe his sweat. -.- i think those who went can agree with me. their performances rocked pretty hard. they sang 11 songs which made my ears buzzed for 2 days. i'm not able to listen to anything with high frequency and high amplitude. if not, my head can go exploding hearing it. should have bought ear plugs tho. :)

alright, i'll upload some of the photos to do the talking. wanna see more, go over to facebook!

the guy that gave us the tickets! :)

B-U-N-K-F-A-C-E

Wonder Girls!

her big ass banana split ice cream.

the crowd of 15 000 people.

bounce bounce!

the gang.

that's bout it. a wet, sweaty, hungry concert. :) worth it! i had fun, did you?

2010-08-04T01:28:00.000+08:00

HAPPY ANNIVERSARY BABY! ♥

i still remember the first time we met each other. i still remember our first date. i still remember the first time we held hands. i still remember the first time you kissed me. i still remember the first movie we watched. it was all 4 years ago when i was 15 and you were 18. how time flies, i'm 19 and you're 22 already. the 4 years of rocky and bumpy road we walked, i'm glad that we made it through. in these 4 years, you really made me fell head over heels and heels and heels all over you. you made me love you more and more and more and more and more and more and more (if i could typed it til tomorrow, i will) each day. i love you so much i'm gonna die! hehe. it all started out as a feeling, who knew it was more than that?

the hand i held since 4 years back. ♥

宝贝,
以经4年啦! 虽然是4年了, 我到现在也不能去相信我们能在一起. 我也不知道为什么, 有可能是我们在一起时也很突然吧? 真的很怀念4年前的我们, 但4年后的我们也没差到哪里去吧? 嘻嘻. 我还是那么的可爱, 那么的性感! :P 好啦, 认真了啦. 我很想告诉你, 谢谢你宝贝. 有你我觉得我是世界上最辛福得女人! 如果没有你, 我想我没有今天了. 这4年来, 有你在我身边帮了我, 教了我很多事, 支持我, 相信我, 保护了我, 爱着我, 宠坏我, 忍耐了我的脾气, 还有你从没放弃过我. 有你我从觉得好安全. 宝贝, 谢谢你一自以来都在. 我知道我伤了你不少, 对不起. 我答应了自己不会在让你心痛了. 你还记得我们第一次的吻吗? 你send了我一封message说：'那可是我的初吻哦.' :') 我才不信! 哈哈. 还记得你失落的样子当我告诉你我的初吻不是你的. 但宝贝, 别失落, 这4年来, 很多事的第一次都是和你在一起. 嘻嘻. 别乱想! 我是说就像这段感情, 第一次和同一个男生在一起了4年. 我相信我们还会有很长的路走, 所以别怕, 你会有我很多的第一次. :)

在过不久我就要飞去美国留学了. 我不想去想, 不想去理. 我不知道在那边没有你的日子是怎样过. 我真的很害怕我撑不下去. 当我想你的时候, 我该怎么办? 当我需要你的时候, 我能怎么办? 我很想也很希望你能和我一起去. 宝贝, 你能和我一起去吗? 你会去考虑吗? :( 我很害怕我会失去你. 我很害怕我们之间会变得冷淡. 我不想那天到来. 我们能坚持吗? 能答应我吗? 不要离开我, 不要放弃我, 一定要相信我, 一定要等我回来. 最重要的是不可以去找别的女子. 这句我是很认真的. 好吗? 虽然两三年的时间不算长也不算短, 但许多事是我们无法能去想象到. 段段这4年, 我们也经历了不少, 很多事我们都一起度过, 但当我在美国了, 你会像现在这样每一件事都会告诉我吗? 不管怎样都好每一天意定要向我报告! 不要因为不了解对方的状况而吵架. 可以吗? 我不想要我们彼此变陌生人. 我不想有那么的一天. 我真的真的很害怕. 我不敢去想没有你的日子. 好想哭. :'( 打勾勾! 所以, 我不想浪费有的和你在一起的时间. 这个假期我会plan很多很多的地方去玩. 我们要开始存钱了! :) 不可以乱乱花钱了. 不然的话, 你要去卖屁股了! 嘻嘻. 但现在我要你先好好读书才可以玩.

muuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuak!!

我爱你宝贝! 爱死你爱死你! 咬你吃你抱着你不放! RAAAWWWWWRRR!

2010-07-31T03:22:00.001+08:00

dad went outstation again. left me and mum at home. gotta wake up early for 2 days to bring my mum for breakfast, then go feed the dogs in the factory, then buy dog food, then go where mum wants to go. it's a torture to wake up early when you can't sleep early at night! damn.

went for enrollment today. :) took 3 subjects this semester. PHY 212 (Physics 2), MAT 133 (Calculus 2), ECO 152 (Macroeconomics). i hope it won't be too stress for this new semester. i'm trying to pull back up my CGPA due to the mistakes for overplaying in the first semester. :( BOO! regretted very much. anyway, timetable is acceptable. thursday got no class. at least a day off for me. really gotta study hard to at least get a 2.8 GPA for this sem. STUDY STUDY STUDY! gotta reactivate my nerd mode soon.

2 weeks of holidays is really not enough. haven't really played enough yet. i can't wait for the 2 months holidays after this semester! :) lots of plans have been made. just hope it will be carry out! before the holidays end, i get to go to the MTV World Stage 2010 Live In Malaysia for FREE! no big deal i know, but at least i don't need to pay a cent for it. my friend managed to get it free, while outside is selling at about RM 100? i don't even know about this concert until i see people asking for tickets in facebook. i don't even know who's coming for the concert until i went and check. but the main point is, if you guys are going, LET'S PARTY TOGETHER! i hope it's gonna be fun.

oh great look at the time. -.- gotta rise and shine early tomorrow. damn. i hope i won't be dead tired at night for the concert. will update about the concert next post. see you there!

2010-07-28T14:33:00.000+08:00

i went Melaka yesterday! :D it was a one day trip which was a very last minute plan. Tim, do the driving while Carmen, Howard and me just enjoy the ride. :) i've uploaded the pictures in facebook. but, i'll upload some here just to do the talking for me. there we go!

walk walk walk, eat eat eat. that's what we did. we went to the Taming Sari tower, something like space shot in Genting, just that it's taller and it's not a ride. it allows you to see the view of Melaka high up in the sky. we also went to the famous Tan Kim Hock. bought some souvenirs. then, bye bye Melaka. reached home around 10pm. we camwhore after our bath. extremely tired after that trip. really enjoyed myself before the new semester starts. thanks Tim for everything. :)

2010-07-26T23:32:00.001+08:00

we sent Yeong Her off to the States today. :) not much of crying scene. haha! you girl, take care over there aite? you know how blur are you right? @@ see you next summer! :) oh, we saw our ex-King too. i don't think i mistaken him for another person, cause i know, our ex-King is fat and very malay-ish look. i don't know which state's Sultan is he now, but i definitely remember he was once our Agong.

so when i was in the airport, many things came across my mind. as you guys know, i really wanna be a pilot. that's my dream since i was 13. there are pilots in the airport going for duty. them in their uniform, it's just so elegant, cool and amazing. that is the part that i like most. :) best thrill is, your duty is to fly a plane with passengers to their destination. a big plane! a body that's able to fly in the sky just so free and you are the one flying it! plus, you get to travel around for free! then, when we walk til the back of the building where the hangar is, i felt a heartache. a sharp one. really wanna cry on the spot. i was thinking, 'that is my dream. will i be able to fulfill it?' all the big airplanes, all the pilots, are like a punch in the face for me. if i get the chance to become what i want to be, i'll definitely love each and every part of it. all i need now is a little luck. Air Asia, when are you going to open the cadet pilot application?

there's also these images that came across my mind too. when it's my time to fly to the States, what am i suppose to do? i will definitely cry like nobody's business. i got no one there, not even a family member. i'll be the first in my family to go to the States, not like everyone else, they've got family members there to pick them up. seeing familiar faces make things easier. i doubt my self confidence into a new country, with new faces, new culture and a new beginning. am i able to toughen up? i'm really scared and worried. what will happen to my family members after i left? will they visit me when they've got the time? we've been together for all my life, everything is done and there for me, but when i go there, i've got no one and nothing for me. OUCH! just by thinking of it can break me down already. not to forget, i've got a relationship. seeing each other for 4 years almost everyday, which will be 5 years next year, will i be able to maintain the long distance relationship? can we hold onto each other? what can i do when i need you? what can i do when i miss you? the feeling it's like a nonstop stabbing right to the heart and leave no mercy for you to stay alive. all these images are haunting me. til the day arrives, can i not leave? can i bring everyone along with me? :'( i really don't wanna leave. i'm not as tough as i look. but i promise myself, i'll toughen up. if you think you can, you can. right?

felt so down all the way back from the airport. :( hey, there's still tomorrow! appreciate what i have now before it's too late. better stop thinking and jumping to conclusions for a future that me myself also don't know. gotta sleep now. 1 day trip to Melaka tomorrow. :D

2010-07-25T03:52:00.000+08:00

that's us. :) i couldn't sleep yet, so honey, this post is for you.

your birthday is tomorrow. i still remember the day i called you on your birthday 4 years back, and you were in the middle of PCD concert. i remember the song they were singing when you lift up your phone for me to listen. it felt like it was just yesterday. but who would believed that we went through 4 years of rough and rocky road. very soon, going into our 5th year. OK, this is suppose to be a birthday post. i'll leave the anniversary post for the next.

babe, happy advanced birthday! i know i won't be able to post on the exact day, so here it goes. i hope you like the early present i bought you. as long as you like it, who cares if it costs me a lot. :) you are so old now. :P a big 22 for you already. i couldn't believe that either. still remember the cute guy i met the first time. he was thin back then, but now, you have big belly now. hehe. BUT, me love! you fatty bum bum, just wanna say you're an adult already. you would start thinking like an adult, act like an adult, and talk like an adult. alright? promise me that. no more childish act and silly things you will do, leave all that only to me cause i need the silly childish you. :) stop whining and complaining. it's not the end of the world yet. calm down and solution will come to you. i really do hope you can give up smoking. i gave you 4 years time already. if you don't you know very well what i will do. and, please please please, mind your words and less vulgarity can? your look so polite and innocent is ruined from the second you open your mouth. -.- try to hold back in your temper. it's not cool! oh, learn to be punctual no matter in what. put that into practice. aren't you tired of rushing all the time? i hate it when you do. please don't be the last minute guy anymore. it's time to grow up big baby. this is all i can think of right now. put that in your wish before you blow the candles off the cake? i think that's more to my wish than yours, but don't do all that for me just because i ask you to, do it for yourself. actions speak louder than words, not the other way round.

i'm still figuring out what to get for you. i've been looking around and asking for suggestions but the feedback is weak. this is what Ethan says; 'aiyo buy him a sex toy and play with him together la.' that really helps? haha! i really hope you don't mind if i come up empty handed on your day. i wanted to take you to a dinner but you rejected me with a big NO-NO. :( so, i'm really out of ideas already. worst is that, on that particular day, i have to go to the temple at night. you do know how much i want to spend the day with you, but i'll cover it back. i promise. only the two of us. ♥

so my big fat pig is already asleep. sorry to keep you waiting for me. it's just that that show is the last episode and who knew it's not the end yet! damn. -.- anyway, it's time for me to turn in too. i miss you already and i can't wait to see you later in the day. last but not least which is important, i love you! 我爱你宝贝. 爱死你! apuciu~ ♥

2010-07-23T12:27:00.004+08:00

i don't know if you guys saw the moon last night, it was beautiful. :) there's a ring around the moon. i didn't believe what i saw, so i asked Howard, he said he saw it too. i thought it's the end of the world or some alien attack, which is pretty scary tho, so i went and google it. lucky i found results. hahaha!

saw the ring?

i don't have a high end camera, and i couldn't snap it with my phone. this is the image i found in google, and it's exactly the same as what i saw last night. the ring around the moon is also known as lunar halo. the clouds located high in the atmosphere, composed as ice crystals, refracted the light which caused the lunar halo. amazing right? i don't know if we can see it all the time, but, it's awesome! i got pretty excited and i shared it among my friends, only a few saw it. :) another amazing nature beauty. Sean said; 'God likes the moon, so he put a ring around it.' that's sweet. :) so, if you guys have the chance to see the ring again, don't forget to share!

2010-07-22T00:55:00.002+08:00

even though things aren't that smooth between my family members and i, but i love to be in the house. :D my house has got everything you need. not everything, but practically, the basic things that you want is there.

if you feel bored, you've got the TV, DVD, VCD, LD, computer, the dogs, the chickens, mahjong, and what else? oh, play station with dancing pads. i wonder if it still works. i also have the video game where we insert tapes instead of discs. PSP was taken away by sis after she shifted. there's also guitar and an organ if you want some unplug moment. there's also poker cards and even UNO cards. i've got both mahjong set and cards. even though there's this much of things at home, i'm still not satisfied. -.- i shall get a pool and snooker table next time for my house when i have one. hehe. then, i wouldn't be worried for my husband as he will always be home! muahaha! great plan.

if you wanna sweat out all your toxins in your body, welcome over to my house. :) it's not a gym, but try cleaning the whole house. then compare yourself doing gym and cleaning my house. they are both equally tired! you can also try doing gardening. you'll be drenched in your own sweat. not only that, my house has got hula-hoop, skipping rope which i just bought recently, and a bicycle just right in front of the TV. we haven't got the running/jogging/walking machine yet. i've got no heavy weights, but i've got light ones! :) i also got a mat for you to do exercises where you got to lay down on the floor. you can pay me instead of the fitness centres and come to my house for gym. HAHA! if not, you can play with my dogs. they can make you sweat too. conclusion, i don't need to go to the gym anymore!

as for food, you won't die of hunger in my house. instant noodles, rice, canned food, frozen food, snacks. when i was younger, my house is always full of snacks cause we always go shopping with mum. now, less snacks, but with the amount of food you can find in my house, you don't need snacks anymore. there's biscuits, crackers, coffee, milo, tea, milk. if you wanna cook for yourself, we've got the fryer, pan, wok, microwave oven, oven, pressure cooker, slow cooker, toaster, blender, mixer, what else? if you're too lazy to cook, you've always got delivery services! if you feel like drinking Chinese tea, my house has got the tea set too! as for tea leaves, we've got plenty. if i'm not mistaken, my house has got 25kg of tea leaves imported from China. that 25kg of leaves are in a box, but we've got the small ones that shaped like Frisbee, we've got a whole drawer of those. -.- as for alcoholic beverages, come and see it for yourself. :)

so now, get the drift for why i love to be in my house? i can still go on about the things you can get in my house, but i'm afraid you might think of me boasting. :D i was shocked too when i list it out. i didn't realize that my house is so equipped. feel like baking? all the equipments are there for you. feel like having steamboat? everything is there too! even for barbeque's utensils. last but not least, the queen sized mattress with the smell of mine only for me! now that's perfect. ♥

2010-07-21T00:59:00.000+08:00

i'm so fucking down right now. just bear with what's coming up below.

people say when you are at the age of 19, everything wouldn't be smooth. as long as there's a 9 in your age. that's why most Chinese people would prefer to say their age a year older or younger when they have a 9 in their age. maybe if you're in the 90s, that's a different story. so, i'm 19 this year. things weren't as good as i want it to be. do i believe in all those crap? honestly, i don't. i just want a header to how bumpy my year has been. i know, it's only July, half the year only, but it suck much for me already. some of you might say suck it up, but i just wanna let it go because i've got nobody to talk to but by just typing it out.

mostly, is the things between my family and i. specially between my dad and i. it started last year if i'm not mistaken. to think about it, it's almost a year since this cold war had been going on. i know he loves me, he cares for me, but sometimes, it's just a little trust that i ask from him. is that too much? right, i understand that he just wanted to protect me, but hey! i can take care of myself if you could just try letting me go a little. i understand how you felt, but come on, do you even know how your daughters feel when you don't try listening to them and just you talking? i just want you to trust me, give me a chance to talk, and give yourself a chance to listen to what i've got to say. is it really that hard? i know, you ego is thicker than an elephant skin, maybe even the skins of 10 elephants could lose to your ego, but, can you just put down your ego and listen to what i've got to say sometimes? when you don't listen, how would you know what i've got to say? all you do is just showing me faces, shouting at me and what else? ignoring me? i suck it up cause you are my dad, and i respect you for that. i don't even know what the hell you want from me. everyone can see, i'm nothing to you and the eldest daughter of yours is something, then good. just because she goes the way you want, being your puppet just to make you happy, doesn't mean i'm stupid as she is to let myself be your puppet to make you happy. i've got my road to walk too. respect me. don't say i never respect you. you yourself could know better than i am. mum knows it too. it's just your fucking ego.

same goes to my family, what the hell do you want from me? since sis got married, everything is different. you guys treated me as if i'm made from glass, total invisible. no? there's no point for me to argue isn't it? where were you guys when i needed your support? i really wanted to go for piloting, true, we couldn't afford it and i couldn't blame that. it's a heartache for me not getting to study for that course, but in the end, i found one compant that could loan me. but what's the response i got? laughing at me, discouraging me, saying things, spreading it to everyone and what they do? come to me and tell me there's no future in it. WOW, isn't that a great support from my OWN family? is that what family do? well if that is, i'm really touched. you know, a little support from my own blood related human is good enough for me. a little is enough. but, you listen to a guy who's a fucking aerospace engineer which became a fucking chef on piloting experience. you trust him more than your own daughter just because he's older than me and he has got nuts in piloting. just cause what he studied has got relation to aeroplanes and not aviation. just cause he has just got a little information on aviation cause he majored in engineering which became a chef? how long had he graduated? 20 years? in 20 years, you can see a small town Klang changed into city that tourists come in and out, who could know that was coming 20 years before? who could know technology was so advanced until we could have maps and internets and video calls and touch screens in handsets 20 years before? did you all listen to me before you pushed me away from pursuing what i want? honestly, did you guys know how i felt? 'oh, we are just worried about your future.' what the fuck was that? what is my future, who would know?! shouldn't it be me to worry about it? you didn't give me a chance to talk, didn't give yourself a chance to listen to me, is that how you decide my future for me?

even by getting an internet line that could save up hundreds in 2 years also need to be scolded? you decide to sit down and talk to me, i'm really glad. i just asked a simple question, there you go starting shouting saying i'm stupid. YES I'M STUPID, THAT'S WHY I ASKED. but did you give me an answer to what i've asked? instead of answering, what did you do? what did you do mum? you just walk away and say; 'you don't even listen. FINE THAT'S ENOUGH. I'M DONE TALKING TO YOU.' i was listening, but what did you say i really don't understand. that is why i asked again. i didn't even asked much, i just asked a simple question which you didn't clarify clearly. then you say, even your sis understands. honestly sis, shut the fucking mouth of yours. dude, you don't even live in this house anymore, why must you fucking give comments? come back home, pretend to be something, and leave shit behind. do you know what the hell you just said the other day? why i'm so pissed? do you even know? you are being a bitch you know that? true, the world don't owe me anything, but that sentence, you should reflect it back onto you. point onto yourself before you started pointing onto others. true, i'm much more educated than you are. i believe my knowledge, IQ and EQ, is way better than yours. but must you say that? you thought i didn't hear it, yes i did hear it. i just ignore it. i respect you for who you are, but what i say sometimes is a fact. if you can't accept what i say, you could just shut it and suck it up cause what i say is true. must you go telling people that, 'WOW educated people talk different one. she eat rice grow up one. i eat shit grow up one.' if that is a compliment for me, i accept it even though i know it's pathetic. if that's a way to let me hear it just to hurt me, you could just fuck off. you don't wanna learn from your mistakes, don't you dare say i didn't learn from mine. and what did my parents do even though they know i'm right and she's wrong? they just shut the fuck up. if the scene were to be the other way round, what do you think happened to me? fuck the hell out of me cause she is my elder sister? just because she is elder and i have to suck it up even though she is wrong?

i'm a simple person. a happy-go-lucky person. if you didn't offend me, then, we are friends. but if you do, then we are enemies. even if you do offended me, as time goes time, eventually everything cools down and we might be friends again. there will still be some feelings, but i could pretend there's nothing between us anymore. i guess my friends could agree with me on that. i've learnt to be more patient compared to last time but patience has its limits. even though you are my family, but please do know i'm also a human being with emotions and feelings. i'm not invisible. i do have opinions. if you were to ignore me, i wouldn't care more or less anymore. i've been invisible for some time already. sorry to say, it's just your loss. if someday i were to be a completely different person, don't blame yourself on that. for now, if i have the chance to just pack and leave, trust me, i will do so.

i used to say typical teenagers talking about how dramatic their life is. i'm being that typical teenager for now. i had enough and just gotta let it out. it's not like people will care. if you guys gonna give me advices, you save your energy from doing so. you guys might have comments on this post, i can't stop you all from doing so! everyone has their way in seeing things. if you think i'm a stuck up bitch, go ahead. i'm immature, go ahead. i'm done pretending for today. fuck yourself off if you think i'm a lucky bitch with no gratitude. know what bitch, don't ever judge me in just a post. :)

2010-07-19T11:51:00.000+08:00

another update after a day! :)

my friends from college came down to Klang yesterday. we went over to i-city for BBQ steamboat buffet dinner. during the night, when the lights are on, you wouldn't believe the amount of people there! there's even tour buses to that place. the place is really crowded until we couldn't really take any photo without taking other people in our picture too. the funny thing is, our college librarian is with us. -.- he makes the situation damn awkward! but we did have fun even though he is around. it's just a little weird. after dinner and photography, we went to my brother in law shop for some frozen beer. only a few is frozen which i couldn't explain why. sorry for those who didn't get the frozen ones! anyway, the best part was, a few people went drunk. wouldn't want to mention names, but Jin Ying, you improved already! :) nobody vomited this time.

photos are in Say Kee's camera. maybe i'll put it up when she uploads it. :) feel like continuing with my thoughts i have now, but i'll keep it for the next post. anyway, i hope you guys enjoyed the night!

2010-07-18T13:40:00.000+08:00

like i've promise, there goes the new skin. :)

the new template designing thing is pretty cool, but it has it's disadvantages. editing was confusing. i've edited this whole thing for like 2 days, and i decided to leave it simple just like that. it's kinda plain, but it should be enough. will take my time to edit slowly. the good thing is, everything is nicely arranged. you just choose which layout you like, the font and size you prefer, the background color, and DONE! just click it and everything is done for you. don't need to copy and paste and delete anymore.

anyway, what's up readers? :) as you can see i've taken out the chat box. i might be putting it back up sometime soon. for the moment, comment on the comment box! it's best if you guys give me a feedback on my new skin look.

so, i finished my finals. :D no plans yet, but i guess it will come up pretty soon. boyfie's birthday in 9 days. still figuring on where to take him to dinner and what to get him. i actually gave him an early present already, but on that exact day, there should be something for him too right? any suggestions? any nice ambiance place to suggest for dinner?

that's bout it. will update more soon. :)

2010-06-29T01:57:00.000+08:00

a short update. :)

i will change my blog skin after my finals. i promise.

ok, that's bout it. physics quiz again tomorrow.

2010-06-18T02:48:00.002+08:00

this has officially become a dead blog. i'm sorry! these few months have been hectic.

April - sister's wedding
May - college starts
now til July - assignments, test and test

i'm having a short semester. it's killing me. i don't even have the time to rest. believe it or not, a night stalker like me can collapse at 11pm every night and wake up at 6 am every day! yes, including Saturdays and Sundays, i've got plans. GOSH! and now with the football fever, goddamnit! I CAN'T CONCENTRATE AND FINALS IS IN ANOTHER 2 WEEKS.

bah~ i'm updating now coz' i've got nothing to do and i can't sleep. i got no idea why. -.- first time since college starts. kill me, i've got 8am class tomorrow, which means i gotta be awake at 6am. better turn in now. :) will update more after my finals or if i've got free time. i promise! :D

2010-03-06T16:55:00.002+08:00

sorry for the wait, fellow readers. i guess there's none left. anyway, i'm back with an update!

since Valentine's Day happens to fall on the very first day of CNY, i couldn't spend time with boyfie the day before or on the exact day. we celebrated our Valentine's Day few days before the exact day. this year, i took him to dinner instead of him taking me to one. i took him to 'The Lobsterman' in SS2. and of course, we had lobster dinner. :D the place is great. they covered their tables with a piece of paper and we can actually draw on it as they provide crayons for us. food is acceptable and price is affordable too! we ordered a dinner set for two. we had escargots as starter, soup of the day, a lobster and seafood baked rice for main course, and fruits for dessert. we also had fresh oysters! :D after our dinner, we went for a drink at 'Chill Out' in Subang.

for his present, i made him cookies with messages on it. supposedly, the present should be given on that day, but me stupidly left it at home. damn kao 'potong stim'. he came the next day to claim his present and i couldn't explain the expression he had on his face when he opened it. i don't know if he likes it. haha! the expression is...unexplainable?

anyway, i'll just let the pictures do the rest of my talk.

me draw! :D

Howard: Howard ♥ Elcy
Me: til'?
Howard: I die...

the cookies i made for him with layers of messages.

that's how i celebrate my Valentine's Day and i enjoyed it. what about you?

2010-02-14T02:48:00.005+08:00

since i'm waiting for boyfie to reach home from temple, i'll just update a little. i know it's a little late, sorry! at least i update! :)

like i've said previously, my nephew is out! :) of course, i'm happy! he is born on the 3rd February 2010, Wednesday. i actually made plans with Shu Yen, Sean and Jay Min on that day. we met up early morning to have Bah Kut Teh coz' i sent my car to replace the windscreen. a stone made a small crack and it grows bigger day after day. OK, skip that part.

i received a call from my mum that my sister is in the hospital, delivering. i was excited of course. :) coincidentally, the place where i'm having my BKT is right behind the place my sis is delivering. sweet! thanks Shu Yen for dropping me. and sorry guys i didn't manage to spend the day with you. so after my breakfast, i went over to check it out. she's in pain, and the vagina is still dilating. terrified me. @_@

i waited for almost 5 hours before the baby decided to come out by Cesarean. my sis said her vagina had dilated up to 9cm already, but when she pushed, she said she felt it but the baby just wouldn't come out. after that, the nurses said that the baby's head is very long and big, which cause it to get stuck and couldn't come out. i can assure you, the head is very big! my mum and i was shocked to see that head. you know aliens have those long head? it's exactly like it. no kidding. but now, i don't know why, the head shrink already. haha!

of course, i'll upload his photos. cute lil' guy! great experience for me.

isn't he cute? hehe. of course, he's blood related to such hot, sexy, gorgeous aunt here. haha! it's 3am already, and Howard just reached home. :) got to go, Happy Chinese New Year and Happy Valentine's Day to all!

GONG XI FA CAI!

2010-02-10T00:48:00.003+08:00

UPDATE

coming soon. haha! sorry for the delay. just wanna let you guys know in my half dead blog that i'm still alive. just a little busy because, MY NEPHEW IS OUT FROM MY STUPID SISTER'S UTERUS! haha. will blog about him soon. hehe. stay tune for a proper update. :)

2010-02-01T23:53:00.004+08:00

felt like blogging after blog hopping.

while i was blog hopping, i seriously am ashamed of my writing. they can write a post in beautiful form of sentences about their life, views and opinions. while i was driving home together with my mum in the car, she said, 'your English is terrible. it's bad. really bad.' OUCH! well, honestly, i do agree with her. the simplest answer to that is, i've been using Chinese quite frequent since i entered high school year. i communicate a lot in Chinese. my Chinese language has been improving, but my English language is slacking. that pretty much suck! i used to write and talk and understand English better than now. i used to write without thinking which word is suitable for that sentence. sometimes, when i looked back at my essay writing, i'm kinda impressed. i didn't know i could write that well. at least it's pretty good for me! i gotta brush up my English before it's too late. :) i guess, that's my first NY's resolution?

OH. i'm going on a diet. my second NY's resolution? and this time i must win! i'm serious. YES SEAN! go ahead and think of what sarcasm to write on my chat box. YOU TOO JAY! haha. i know you guys will. :) such assholes friends you guys are. will do my best for the sake of not buying over sized clothes with a figure like mine. plus, Howard kept nagging and my mum is calling me a 'FATTY'. damn shitty when you have a boyfriend like that, worse still, with your mum around when boyfie is not calling you FATTY! i do admit i'm quite of a fatty now. my collarbone is not as visible as before anymore. this has pretty much proven how much of weight i've put on. i'm watching on my food intake already, next, is activities to cut down more fats. mum says, 'people who laughs a lot is sure fat. you see, that's why *points at the DJ in TV which i forgotten her name* she is so fat. SERIOUS!' -.- so i must cut down on my laughing? you'll get to see emo me soon. haha!

i feel so old now. i hate music which i use to like, oh wait, i should call that noise. i only listen when i have the mood to listen to noise. sometimes, i do find my friends of my age group immature. the way they act, talk and do is so immature that you would just shut the fuck up and look away. it's so unbearable to see or to listen, you would want to shove them in their face and shout, 'can you just grow up? you're fucking an adult already. start to think like one!' or maybe that's just me. maybe it's because my social circle are all grown ups since i was 7. plus, my boyfriend is a cute, sweet, childish adult too. hehe. i admit, i might be immature at times, and i don't really be like one, but at least, i've got my grip on what i'm doing. i could think of a few bitches and bastards now which i can go on and on, maybe next post? teehee.

i guess that is all i wanna blog about. :) i think i'll change my blog skin soon which i pretty much wanting to change it for quite some time already. it's pretty much a long post after me stop blogging that much since i entered college. i promise i'll try to keep my blog as alive as possible. this will go into my NY's resolution list at number 3. shopping with boyfie tomorrow! <3 night!

2010-01-30T03:21:00.003+08:00

i know it's already end of the month and now i'm here updating my blog about my Christmas Eve and New Year's Eve.

i spent my Christmas Eve at In N' Out Cafe. they had this buffet thing going. if there isn't, i would be with my cousins BBQ-ing already. anyway, here are a few of the pictures. want see more photos, go over to my page in Facebook. kinda lazy to upload more. :)

as for NYE, i have got no plans actually. then, Kyle invited me to go over his house for a small party, something like a small gathering since he's back. right after i promised him i could go, many calls coming in asking me to join them. -.- but then, i had fun in Kyle's house tho. met up some old friends, talked and played the lame 'Watermelon' game, played Wii, then ready for the countdown. we bought snow sprays, so we waited for the time to come and SNOW ATTACK! xD

Melissa had curfew at 12.30am. Shu Yen fetched her back, and when she reverse her car, she banged into my car. she couldn't see my car was at the back of hers. first accident of the year, right at the first day of the new year. luckily, it's just minor. letters and numbers from the car plate fell off, stick it back up with double-sided tape so my dad doesn't suspect.

we were supposed to play crackers, but Kyle is afraid the police might drop by and take us for a visit at the station. xD we couldn't get enough fun, so we went over to the mamak in Bukit Tinggi. i gotta leave early, coz' my prince which is Cinderella has got curfew. xD it was pretty late already tho. afterall, i had lotsa fun! :) and here are some of the pictures i steal. roll over to Facebook to view more.

that's how i spent my time on Christmas eve and NYE. so, that's bout it. i'll blog again soon. now let's just wait another 2 weeks for CNY! :)

2009-12-23T01:12:00.003+08:00

i recalled another conversation in mamak. the same crowd, but this time, it happens on Chay Ann. if i'm not mistaken, i think we were talking about how close Chay Ann and Kok Leong is lately which made them looked gay. i only remembered Sean's sentence.

Howard: ........................bla bla bla.

Chay Ann: bla bla bla bla bla.......

Me: bla bla bla bla bla........bla.

Sean: so Chay Ann, who's up, who's down or you two take turns?

*silence in a moment*

Me: BUUAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHAHA! WTF?! HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA! *remembered laughing very loudly and hard*

Howard join me after that. Chay Ann, as slow as ever, gets it later on.

Chay Ann: shit you Sean. #%^#%*&$^&^@$%#!@$#@&%* WTF?! hahahahahaaha!

that's some funny shit. xD

2009-12-21T01:18:00.003+08:00

OK! at last an update. i actually wanted to update everytime, but i'm just super lazy. sorry! and Jazmint, here goes an update for you la! happy? :P

just now, went mamak with few of high school mates. Jay Min ffk-ed us. he gotta babysit his brother til the parents back. OK, let's skip to the funny part. before more people turn up, there was only Howard, Chay Ann, Sean and me. Sean wanted to tell us something funny, ended up....

Sean: OH, talking about that, Raymond came up to me and my brother one day and said, 'GUYS got no ovaries one meh?'

Me: then what did you answer?

Sean: we just laughed at him. we didn't answer him.

Me: OH, i thought you would answer him, 'YA. I GOT WHAT!'

Sean: -.- :X ^%&#$%#&@$!^&$!!&%^*#%^#%$#&

so everyone of us went laughing like crazy and high five-ing with each other. XD sorry Sean, but this is the best part la. i need an update, so don't be like a girl and be mad at me can? *even though you are and you will be* just remember my souvenirs when you go Europe. miss you!

so, there it goes. hope you enjoyed and had a good laugh!

2009-10-29T23:41:00.002+08:00

i want to eat RAMLEY BURGER AYAM SPECIAL right now! damnit. i'm going on diet before starting my gym. :) i don't want to look like one disgusting muscular freak. XD hahaha! patience, patience.

anyway talking about eating, just now i watched the news on TV. there is this lady in Holland, ate something that is not edible. not for eating and also not for drinking. she always complains that she has got gastric pain. i bet everyone of you felt it before. but hers was different, she had it almost everyday til she couldn't take it anymore, she went to the doctor.

doctor took an X-ray on her abdominal part and there is this BIG WHITE PATCH in her stomach. you know X-ray is in black and white, the doctors couldn't identify what the hell is that white patch. of course, doctor being doctor, request for an immediate surgery. guess what was that white patch? to the doctors surprise, the surgeons took out 78 items of cutlery. fork and spoon. freaking 78 items! doctor couldn't explain why she only eat forks and spoons but never knives.

the 78 pieces of silverware.

she said she had this habit of eating the cutlery lying on the table. she's more interested in the shiny silverware but not the FOOD! i wonder how she swallow it down? now after the surgery, she's going on a therapy and becoming like a NORMAL human being eating the right stuff and stay healthy. amazing isn't it? people, just too many types. we never knew there is one like this. XD

that's all. hungry hungry but don't wanna eat. waiting for boyfie to finish his ironing. :) me, lazy to study for CSC101. it's my last paper so i can consider that my finals are over! yahoooo~ night!

2009-10-27T01:59:00.004+08:00

yeap, i'm still awake but felt a little sleepy already. i guess my blog has progress already. good news to me! :)

anyway, i'm still procrastinating. didn't even do any practices yet for Calculus 2 and finals is on Thursday. kill me! sat in front of the PC and facebook-ing the whole day. added everyone i know in the suggestion list to kill my time. eventually, talked to this junior of mine that i never talked to before. FYI, he's getting hot! haha! :P talked halfway, he left and so i decided to blog hop onto people i don't know but know their existence.

stumbled across one and gosh~ kids nowadays. clubbing at the age of 15 and put on cosmetics which made them look like they are in their 20s. not to offence anyone, WHAT ARE THE PARENTS DOING?! hello, your daughter is acting like a slut and you don't really care? seriously, it's not that i'm jealous or what, but this is just......way to over. well, the owner of the blog that i actually blog hop is already 17 but she gave me a slutty impression already. haha! guess that's what we call the face problem isn't it? wear something like a teenage girl and not an adult lady. know what? just be a high school student first alright? it's not the matter of being my business but these are the people that increase crime rates! XD

honestly, do you think you actually look cool and pretty and hot? dude, you look just like a slut! desperate for sex and attention. maybe it might be me being too Asian or you just being too slutty? once again, i'm not jealous because i did what i am supposed to be doing way back in high school. i studied well, be a good student, naughty but good (wtf?!), act like a teenage girl. i went into clubs when i'm legal except that very once. :P upon entering the club which i'm not legal, i was a little scared but they entered like it's their house. -.-

bah~ maybe it's just me that think like that. anyway, i wanna get back to high school. so gonna go back right after my finals! :)

P/S: i guess i complain a lot nowadays. gotta stop doing it!

2009-10-25T23:32:00.002+08:00

when i was still online yesterday at around 3am, Richard Tan nudged me. well, our conversation actually made me realized that most of our friends are gone. my best friend, Sean, left to Aussie right after we finished high school. Kyle left without notice. not only that, even people in Malaysia seems far away now. where is everyone?

everyone have their new friends, new life, new studies. we tend to spend more time with our college friends and pretend to be busy with life. now, it seems like everyone of us are strangers and had nothing in common anymore. :( it's a pretty sad thing to say as we were stick to each other for like how many years? some 11 years, some at least 5 years. what is it that change us in split second and we tend to be closer to our new friends that we barely know?

what is driving us into this way? i really don't know. yesterday when Shomen invited to his house for Deepavali celebration, it was so great to have met with some of my old classmates. it was great to meet each other again after almost a year, but it seems that something is blocking us to talk like what we did back in high school. what is it? was it our ego? was it that we grew up and pretend to be matured? what was it? do we actually know the answer? i guess it's a big NO.

then, when we get out of college, we will be having our working life. there, new environment, new experience, and also, new friends. where do college friends go? same as high school friends? i guess so. we only will gather when there is an occasion. ONLY FOR OCCASION. some might not turn up because of being too busy with life. is it really that true? why can't we spend 2 hours of our time out of the 24 hours a day we have to just RELAX? how much will 2 hours cost? i really don't get some people. the funny part is what you know? if you ever notice, when a person is in a relationship, we are out of the list. we are out from outing, we are out from knowing what's new, and the list goes on. some prefer to be out of the list just to be with the so called 'THE ONE'. seriously, why is that so? if you can't leave him and are stuck with each other, why can't just take them out along?! is it that the so called 'THE ONE' is an embarrassment?

i guess that's the stage of life isn't it? til the end of the day, what do we have left? it's pretty obvious and each of us know the answer deep down our hearts. :)

2009-10-23T03:00:00.004+08:00

i had quite a nap just now in the evening and now, i'm wide awake. anyway a quick update before my finals next week.

well, finals are killing me especially none other than Calculus 2. i'm so lazy and i'm not doing any practices. tomorrow is my last day of class but, i'm gonna skip it. i hate that bunch of fucking nerds in my class that are so fucking annoying. specially that #$#^#%&$#@$^#@^%^*&*. dude, it's just an I-Phone. get a grip. bunch of idiots. bahhhhh~

next, i hate Sri KL students. yes, you get that fucking right. i hate that school, the students, the parents, the drivers. DUDE, YOU DON'T OWN THE FUCKING ROAD. one student and a driver in one big car? haven't you guys heard of car pooling? gosh, troublesome. not that i'm jealous or what, it's just that, STUPID. i don't know how to explain it, but if you are gonna be around the area, observe them. you will understand. on the other hand, Subang has been raining like cats and dogs lately. and, i don't know how and why, my car actually slipped? YEA! today, i parked my car near to a pole and it slipped nearer to the fucking pole and caused my car to actually lean on that and i've got no choice but to drag my car out there and leave a freaking scar on my car. luckily, i have Carmen and Jin Ying to direct me to get my car out with minor injuries! :) thanks honey!

anyway, Howard and i are still going on. :) and he dump me now to sleep again after napping for like 5 hours because he claims that he hasn't got enough sleep. OH WAIT, he claims that he's sick. still the same, never changed. forget it. i watched 'Definitely, Maybe' just now and that movie is a tad bit boring but it was so sweet. haha! it's just amazing on what can love really do. how i wish i could be the actress in romance movies but by hoping Howard would do it, it will take his lifetime to figure it out. not that he's not sweet, he's uber sweet, but movies are always....MORE.

guess i'll try to tuck myself in now. skipping classes tomorrow but will still go to college to get some tips.

2009-10-17T12:56:00.002+08:00

it's Saturday and it's a holiday. this time i should still be sleeping but i'm already awake. guess what? for the first time, i'm stuck at home because i've got nowhere to go. :( mum said the kids are coming over later. gosh, they are going to tear down the house and is there anyone out there to save me? how i wish i'm now in Subang so that i can go find my silly gang of friends! haha!

sis is coming back later with an Indon friend and i wonder who is that. that friend will be staying in my house. well, gonna be a hell of a party tonight! well, i hope tonight my cousins could save me and take me out!

gotta go find food now. i'm hungry~ again, Happy Deepavali guys!

2009-10-16T22:18:00.002+08:00

my sis came back just now and brought back the old laptop. she just said, 'nah.' well, i supposed she's returning it back. it's good to have a laptop now but there's nothing in this crap. well, my mum said she wanted to buy me a new one the other day and i hope she buys it. :) i told her sis gave me this back so...let's just hope. if not, i'll work on this crap.

anyway, as you can see i've deleted my previous post. well, it's not really appropriate coz' it was a mistake. i shouldn't have done that out of anger. anger mislead people. :S well, of course, i would like to apologize to Howard for that. and to my friends, don't worry about me. i'm fine. i'll keep all of you updated because i'll have more time now!

Happy Deepavali my friends!

2009-09-23T04:25:00.000+08:00

it's 4.20 am and i couldn't sleep. i guess my biological clock is messed up again.

anyway, i'm having a 1 week holiday for raya! i heard that other programmes only have like 2 days of holidays and that sucks! :) of course there are pros and cons. i get to chill more and not think about calculus 2 for a week which is part of the pros. in otherwise, i'll forget every shit of it which will kill me when class starts. and, i have to cramp everything old and new together when class starts. not to forget, i'm in short semester this term which i have to cramp 4 months of work into 2 months. imagine that. CALCULUS 2 IS KILLING ME! arghh~ cons are more than the pros. dang! if you think secondary add maths is tough, try taking up US engineering studies which require you to go til CALCULUS 3. good thing about US studies is, you study everything through the concept and not spoon fed like what Malaysia is doing to the students. you gotta move your brain a little and most importantly, TEAMWORK! :) so eventually at the end of the day, you know what you have studied and how to apply it and use it.

alright, i'm crapping too much. college life is getting better. and ya, good thing about US studies, you know everyone in the programme! each and everyone of us will somehow meet each other in at least ONE class. different background, different countries, different culture, different age group. THAT ROCKS! so, you get lots of friends from many different kind of places. for me, i know people from almost all over Malaysia. yeap~ right up to Sabah and Sarawak. i also know people from China, India, Mongolia, Indonesia,...and couldn't recall anymore. i haven't met a Korean yet, but there are lots of Koreans in INTI.

so if you any Form 5-mers that actually read my dead blog want to know more about US studies, i suggest you INTI College. it's not because i'm from there, it's because of the standard which you will be shocked. if you do not know, INTI is the first ranking transfer rate. the choices for colleges are so wide and colleges which has ranking in US like Embry-Riddle, Purdue University, is also linked. just that, your CGPA have to reach to a standard of 3.0-3.5 which you can go commit suicide. XD and the fees are way cheaper than Taylor's ADP. no offence, it's the fact!

i'm like promoting INTI. haha! my point is, INTI had given me a great college experience. :) i guess that's bout it. will continue a long, boring post again soon. and it's almost to 5 am. so, good morning!

2009-09-19T02:11:00.003+08:00

everything has changed.
i don't know when, and i don't know how.
it got from bad to worse, and from worse to worst.
it was the look and the actions of yours..
i know that look.
i know i never once had that look of yours onto me before,
never before.
i knew it was different,
and it will be different from that moment.

my heart was shattered where a gentle touch could turn into dust,
instead of a touch,
you gave me a stab where you put in phrases,
which you made me bleed deeply inside,
while i'm crying deeply hard inside and nobody knew.
no one. not even YOU.
that stab,
didn't crush my shattered heart.
guess what?
it's bleeding, and still bleeding.
drop by drop, seconds by seconds,
strong to weak, filled to empty,
that stab, broke me.
it proves to me today,
that IT'S OVER.

2009-08-22T02:56:00.002+08:00

- [ h o w y ] - Everything says:
god barking just now

- [ l i n c z e ] - cause you're my everything.. says:
god barking just now?
hahahahXD

- [ h o w y ] - Everything says:
dog..

- [ l i n c z e ] - cause you're my everything.. says:
hehehe
god barking just now

- [ h o w y ] - Everything says:
....
if god can bark

- [ l i n c z e ] - cause you're my everything.. says:
hehehe

- [ h o w y ] - Everything says:
i must be in heaven edi

LOL. that's what you get when you tend to type too fast. XD

2009-08-21T04:03:00.005+08:00

i'm on my second week of holiday. i don't know why i don't blog much nowadays, unlike before. whenever i have free time, i would just blog. i think i rant too much. anyway, i took my nap for too long just now and i couldn't sleep now. since i'm very much awake and everyone is asleep, and i'm so free because Benjamin dump me, so here goes an update!

i just came to realise that i didn't blog about Howard's 21st birthday. -.- i'm sorry! i've forgotten about it til i went through my folders. anyway, his birthday was a small one among few of his close friends. many couldn't make it coz' it was a last minute call. specially my stupid cousins. so, i kinda made some plans with his friend. i told them to lie to him that they aren't free that night and gave him a surprise in the end. it worked out and he was happy. he didn't even realise i went missing for 20 minutes to prepare. birthday song was up, and there we go!

the birthday boy

21 muffins

FYI, i bake the muffins myself with the help from a friend of mine! :) thanks Adrian! i now realise the fun of baking. i'm persuading my mum to get an oven and i guess she's gonna get one soon. GREAT! then, i'll bake and bake and bake.

i guess that's about it. :) just some quick update bout me. i'm going kite flying a lot lately and play poker in facebook frequently too. haha! kinda addicted to this two now. more updates will be up soon. starting to feel a little sleepy now. but before i end i wanna say...

...happy 3rd anniversary. :) we've been through 3 years now and going into our fourth year! im glad to have you around me. i'm sorry to have hurt you lately and i regretted for doing so. but no matter what, i love you! <3 there's still more for me to say but here is just parts of it. i'll do it in one full post another time.

it's been 2 days. i miss you!

2009-08-07T22:13:00.005+08:00

it's August. time flies so fast. :) finals are gonna over soon, and HOLIDAYS are here! partay partay partay! can't wait.

anyhoos, nothing much happened lately. it's just that, i'm into kite flying lately. come on, Bukit Tinggi, full of kites up above the sky lately. the other day, our homemade kite dropped onto someone's antenna. it's not that i have no skills, it's just that the kite is fly up fast, drop down even faster. i've tried my best to pull back my kite, but i'm not fast enough. kite flying from that day onwards proven to me that it's way harder than when i go fishing. however, the next day we went back to check on the kite, it's gone. i think people took it already. anyway, i bought a bat shaped kite. so it's like BATMAN in the sky. just that it's orange. XD

not to forget, i had a trial case for my politic class. even though the professor is giving me hell lots of pain in the arse, but thinking back, it's quite fun! our case was about Satanism and my role was a nosy neighbour of the prosecutor. i do hope i can pass this subject cause i kinda get kinda low marks in my coursework. :S

last but not least, i received my scholarship certificate already! :) after so long, finally! didn't manage to see Daniel Bego. Daniel Bego is studying in Inti College under sports scholarship. he was in Rome for competition when he's supposed to be getting his certificate in Inti. well, i'll have the chance to see him some other day.

guess that's bout it. guitar exam in another 2 weeks. :) bye!

2009-07-24T01:09:00.005+08:00

i guess i'm updating my blog once a month. :S i never imagine that i could abandon it aside. i promised myself i will blog no matter how busy i am, i won't let my blog be dead like every other friends of mine after entering college. now, i'm one of them. and now, i know why.

i do not have a valid reason on why am i so busy this semester. i don't join any society or student body, and yet i'm busy. i do not have classes on Friday which allows me to rest for 3 days and still having sleepless nights. and i wonder why! i guess the 3 days of rest actually encourage me to plan something to occupy my time. that is what i am busy for i supposed. i've been going out almost every night nowadays and that pisses my dad off. -.-' so now, i have to be a good daughter lying around the house, doing nothing but staring at the walls.

there's much event going on this month and i'll summarize a little of it. my sister's wedding party was held on the beginning of this month. i really do hope i can post up some pictures but some idiot deleted all the memories in the camera and i wonder who! now, we have to wait for Alec which will be months later. patience has its virtue.

next, Pooi Cheng's farewell. i'll upload some photos to do the talking. well, take care there Pooi Cheng. :) i will see you soon i supposed.

next, Bukit Cahaya outing. we were mislead by one of my friend who actually doesn't know the road there. he turned round and round in Shah Alam the other day and kinda pissed me off. :) luckily, we managed to reach our destination. we had one great day which makes my butt hurts, legs sore and half dead! most importantly, Howard became the Chicken Wing King. haha!

for more photos, you can always go facebook to have a look! and i guess that's bout it. latest event will be updated soon as i'm waiting for the photos from my cousin's camera. another busy busy busy weekend!

2009-06-19T13:09:00.003+08:00

L-I-F-E. what can you tell me about life? love, hate, complicated, sucky. there would be many opinions on how to look at life. regardless on how sucky a life could be, just enjoy it with no regrets. why frown while you can be happy for a day in your life? dream as if you'll live forever, live as if you'll die today! :)

i wonder why many people complain and whine about their life. 'OH! my future's gone!', 'OH! why does all this happen to me?' think about it. DO THINGS JUST COME TO YOU LIKE THAT? let's just take an example, conflicts which turn into a cat fight. instead of shouting at one another and just apologise to one another, i guess it's better off right? once you start the fight, will the person be so stupid enough to stand back and let you whack the hell out of him? same thing in life, if you didn't want things to happen, think before you do! if you knew the outcome will be nasty, why do it anyway? some say it's just luck, i would say, IT'S YOUR OWN DOINGS. nobody can go back and start a new beginning, but anyone can start today and make a new ending.

complaining and whining is annoying. people might throw some sympathy onto you but do they even care about it? we, humans, are materialistic and realistic. SUCK IT UP! move on with life. stop whining and complaining about how sucky your life is. if there happens to be obstacles ahead, think of a way to solve it. don't just stop and stare at the problem. seriously, if you can stop and stare at the problem, whining and complaining about it, CAN IT BE SOLVED? it really pisses me off sometimes why people tend to complain so much and do nothing about it. it's not that i don't allow it, it's just that, too much of it annoys me. like in a river, the water still flows the way through to the sea even though there are obstacles here and there. why can't we humans be like that? be who you are and say what you feel because those who mind don't matter and those who matter don't mind.

decisions. have you ever make a decision before in your life? i bet everyone does. making decision is an easy thing, everyone could do it, BUT, making the RIGHT decision is hard isn't it? well, ask yourself, have you actually make the right decision in your life? life is the art of drawing without an eraser. it can't be erased. once a decision is made, it's made.

my point is, life is not about finding yourself, life is about creating yourself. so make the right decision and never regret it. there's nothing for you to regret as the decision is made by yourself, not others. complaining and whining is immature. God give us brain to think rationally, so use the brain to think if you ever have one. intellectual growth should commence at birth and cease only at death. since you are not dead and still reading my blog, start growing up intellectually.

so, live your life with no regrets because life is not measured by the number of breaths we take, but by the moments that take our breath away. all the best to everyone and good luck.

2009-06-16T01:11:00.003+08:00

mostly all my friends from high school or college would know that i actually have a blue and yellow Nike patent leather bag. the reason why i chose the color was because i thought nobody would have it. what i can see in the streets was black and red, pink and grey. anyway, i couldn't find the color i have but this is how it looks like. just imagine it is blue instead of green. :)

so, in my college, there is this guy that has the EXACT same bag as me. same color and design. unfortunately, only me and him had the same color which is striking enough for everyone to notice. it sucks i can tell you. i'll tell you why!

INCIDENT 1
i was late for my class one day and i rushed into the elevator before the door close. such coincidence, the guy was in the elevator too, with the same bag i have. the elevator was kinda packed and i stood right in front of him. i kinda move back when i saw him in the lift because it was like 'should i go in or what?' it was SO SO awkward. you can even hear his friends giggling there.

INCIDENT 2
we already knew that we had the same bag. but, we didn't know each other. one day while i was eating in AC, he was there too. when i was about to leave after eating, one of his friends kinda say it quite loud in Chinese, 'EH. she steal your bag!' my friend heard it and laughed out loud. :S his friends were laughing too. damn.

INCIDENT 3
the Nike bag is a sling bag. so, when you put more things inside, it tends to get heavier and hurt my shoulder when i carry it. i decided to change to the ALI bag i have which is more comfortable. and so TODAY, this morning, while i was walking to college from my friend's house, he together with his friends were standing in the middle of the sidewalk in front of college. i've got no choice but to pass by them. the minute i pass by, he looked at me to see if i'm the girl that has the same bag as him. and yes, he kinda recognised me and shouted before i turned the corner to enter college in Chinese, 'EH! how come today you didn't take the same bag as me?!' -.-' lucky thing is that, i've changed my bag, if not, i don't know what kind of awkward questions he would pop.

IT IS PRETTY AWKWARD FOR ME ALRIGHT? imagine you wear a nice T-shirt that you thought nobody could have to dinner and in a sudden, you saw a guy walking in the restaurant and sat right next to you. then he tells you, 'HEY! we're wearing the same shirt!' it's OMFG. haha! it's not a big deal, but at least an update. now you know that there is a guy in my college that has the EXACT same bag as me. too bad, the guy is not hot even though he is a twin. haha! if not, i'll be stalking him each and every day in college. XD

turning in before i turned into some weird PANDA PIG species. :)

2009-05-21T22:23:00.005+08:00

size DOES matter!

for the sake of updating, i will fill this post with pictures i have in my phone. since i got my new hand phone, C905, which has a 8.1 mega pixel camera, boyfriend and i had been using a lot to take photos. the pictures are great and the quality is darn good. i can say it's compatible to digital cameras. :) he take many random shots. the sky, my sun glasses, my gearbox, me driving, me sleeping, him, us and of course, the sexy me~ :) i'll just post up the photos to brighten up my dead blog.

yeah. the sexy me!

DON'T BUT ME! I HATE PEOPLE WHO BUT ME.

i've watched 'Sell Out' the Malaysian film. that's the line that make you ROFL. i rate it 8/10. it's good, seriously, even though some of the filming skills suck. it's just that, how to say it, well...watch it then you will know. it's seriously good, not great, but GOOD. funny here and there. it's very, super duper lame. XD i enjoyed it, but Howard got pissed off watching that movie. he didn't like it coz' it's damn lame but then, he laughed even louder than i am. haha! Peter Davis, the main role in this movie, who acted as 'Eric Tan' is cute. i would be proud to recommend people to watch it. :) don't under-rated this film.

you wouldn't regret watching it. it's worth the price.

2009-05-14T22:46:00.003+08:00

i'm back with an update on Choi Wen's surprise birthday celebration. yeap, Choi Wen. haha! she's lost somewhere but still manage to find her. so, we gave her a surprise birthday on Friday night with Kian How, Teck Loong, Yi Xia, Howard and me. it was a sudden plan. it all happened in Amazon Pool Club. :)

pictures will do the talking.

tomorrow, i'll be having pool competition in Amazon. my skills kinda ran off when i didn't play for 2 weeks because of my finals. but, i just joined for fun! :) gotta turn in now as i need to wake up early morning tomorrow to go over to JPJ to book my car plate number. if you guys didn't know, i'm getting a new car soon! it's gonna be a busy day tomorrow. night everyone!

P/S: i will change my blog skin soon when i have the time.

2009-05-04T21:59:00.002+08:00

started my new semester today and aren't quite happy about it. well, i kinda like screwed up my past semester which cause me to retake again and got my scholarship suspended. i kinda regret for screwing up. played a lot and won't repeat the same mistake again. well, forget about it. let bygones be bygones and i promised myself if i were to get a C after my review, i will study hard! :)

on May 2, my family had Mother's Day dinner in KEC. more or less is a family gathering. cousins had fun not during the dinner, but after the dinner in Central. Central was having a promotion that night where one tower only costs RM 53.90. which means you still get back your balance if you give a RM 60. if you guys didn't know, one tower is equivalent to 9 small bottles, which is also equivalent to two buckets that costs RM 50 each bucket. do the counting if you have a brain. it is cheap and so, we started off with 2 towers. only the 5 of us are the one drinking. it all went wild when we started playing the dice. so 5 people together with dice, becomes 4 towers of beer which is 36 small bottles, which is also 8 buckets. i was drunk that night again. =.=' i was challenged by the manager, Darwin's friend, and basically i lost a few rounds in playing the dice which requires me to drink more.

i will upload the photos once i get all. mostly all of it will be up on facebook and i'll just copy and paste. :)

2009-05-01T15:09:00.002+08:00

this post is dedicated to Sean Tan who is currently in Australia.

oh dear Sean, i was so touched that you remembered my birthday. you called all the way from Australia when i was having my dinner and you made some weird voice so that i couldn't recognise. i couldn't identify you at first but still i manage to know who you are. know why? I NEVER FORGET WHAT A GAY SOUNDS LIKE. well, that's how it is. :)

happy for your post? take it or leave it. hahahahaha! see ya in June bitch.

2009-05-01T14:31:00.005+08:00

as i've said, it wouldn't take long for me to update my blog. :) anyway, i'll upload some photos as i've promised. enjoy!

My Fishing Trip in Kundang

more photos are up in facebook. the videos too are in facebook. :)

Pre-Birthday Celebration

i really appreciate everyone that came. :) thanks for everything. i left out one present with no photos. it's a hamper from Famous Amos. thanks for that hamper, coz' the cookies are great!

that's bout it. i'm going for my nap now. just came back from some charity work and it's tiring. will update soon! take care everyone.

2009-04-23T13:48:00.004+08:00

just realised i didn't update my blog for a month already. well, sorry my friends. i've been quite busy on my schedule. for now, i'm free coz' i'm having sem break! :) whee! and i guess this will be a long post. i'm gonna update one month event.

first day of the month, which was April Fool, was also my parents' anniversary. i rushed back from college, developed a photo and bought a photo frame, rushed back home and took my bath. i could say, it was really a hectic day. then, off we go to KL for dinner. Unique Seafood was it as we're tired of eating Ah Yat Abalone. everything was lovely and enjoyed our dinner.

next, was my birthday. few of my friends came all the way down to Bukit Tinggi to celebrate with me. some of them have curfews but still manage to stay til midnight. i appreciate it. Shu Yen and Phillip, you two bastards are back to Australia. when you are back here again, make sure you give me a call. well, i don't have photos with me but i'll upload it up soon. before i end this paragraph, i wanna thank my family members for giving me such presents. :) i really love it. my parents bought me a C905 Sony Ericsson and my sister bought me a DKNY watch. as for my friends, you know who you are as i'm lazy to type it out and hope you don't mind, thanks for spending your time with me. i liked the presents and the planning. i know some couldn't make it coz' of exams, but still thanks for your wishes!

then, it's Darwin's birthday. just two days after mine. well, i wouldn't say i was drunk that night, even though things i see was a little spinning round and round and i vomited. -.- BUT, i still know what's going on! Howard had the same thing as me. haha! i've said before, i drank almost every week and seriously, i guess i will stop for a moment. i know i can do it! :) all the pictures are up on facebook, but i will upload some here.

the birthday boy with his tissue box.

if you are wondering what is this, is their Mini Cooper.

yesterday, i went fishing with Darwin in Kundang, Rawang. it's a catch and release pond. it was awesome! :) all these while, everytime i go fishing, i get nuts. but yesterday, i caught 2 fish! the feeling was awesome. i did take some pictures but it's not with me. will upload the photos together with the videos soon. Howard went with me too and he caught a fish. came back home, tired, hungry and sleepy. would love to go again.

i guess i'll stop here now. i'm going for my haircut. busy busy~ til next time guys! :) it won't be long!

2009-03-24T10:00:00.010+08:00

i'm blogging early in the morning is because i overslept. i was supposed to be in college now, but there's no point going anymore as i'm already late. :) so, i went Bah Kut Teh with my parents and came back home, not knowing what to do. assignments for practice would be great before finals. before hitting myself with assignments, i'll just upload some photos about my previous Putrajaya trip.

photos below here are the ones i went for the first time.

the second time i went, there were this international hot air balloon fiesta going on. the weather was extremely hot and got myself sunburned. :(

the bunch of us that went

then, we went to this memorial monument.

when we were about to leave, guess what we saw!

fuh~

well, that's bout it! time to hit my practice now.

2009-03-17T22:33:00.008+08:00

FEELINGS; seriously, what are they? it has been going on my mind for like few weeks already and still i couldn't figure out why. feelings made me a little confused lately and i wasn't quite enjoying it. it made my life upside down and inside out. it forced me into deep thinking lately. i started thinking about my future, my friends, and also my relationship. YEA~ and how does thinking made me think til my future, my friends and my relationship? haha! well, i feel insecure and hopeless in certain ways.

let's just start from my future. some of my friends knew that i wanna be a pilot, but due to that job being sexist, i gave up my dream. my heart seriously break into a trillion gazillion billion million pieces. i was really down and when i think about it, i did cry. i tried being optimist but i kinda succeed a while. deep down inside, i just couldn't. in the end, i took up engineering courses. i've decided to major in aeronautical engineering as it is related to airplanes. i kinda struggle a little at first even though it's just foundation, it made me think harder. can i do it? one day while i was in the library, i passed by a book; automotive engineering. it would be cool to take it as in the future, we'll all be driving hybrid cars. it's a good future to look forward to. if i don't understand, i can seek help from Howard. i don't really understand what exactly he always explain, but i did try. it made me think hard again and worry i might fail in my future. i feel insecure and hopeless.

next, my friends. as time goes by, i noticed that my friends are moving apart from me. we're not as close as before anymore, as we made new friends and moved on different lives. i used to have this bunch of friends which we were so close and we talked about everything. when time flies, i got into a relationship and i was excluded from their outings. deep down, i'm hurt. slowly, this group of friends are tearing up apart and i got into a new group. i enjoyed in this group a lot, but i feel like they are far, far away from me. well, Jay and Sean, i didn't say you dump me. haha! just that, i really miss you guys. after SPM, i didn't join you guys that much as i'm working. Sean left, Jay started new life in college. now i regret for not having time with you all during the holidays. well, sometimes i feel like i'm a hopeless friend. was it because of my negligence that they avoided me or what? i don't know. but, do forgive me if i've offended you guys.

lastly, my relationship. it started off early, and i'm a little regret for starting early. no offence, i was only 15 when i met you. haha! dude, i still haven't experience lots of things yet and i seriously still wanna play A LOT!! but, do bear in mind, i never regret being with you alright? sometimes, to be honest with you, i'm frustrated. it then triggers my thinking, 'whether or not i still love you?' it will then, make my feelings fade towards you. i felt insecure but there is no consultancy. when this happens, i hate this part right here~ i wouldn't want to care, i wouldn't want to talk, and i wouldn't wanna feel your presence. i prefer mixing with my friends and flirt around. mind you, i'm not a bitch, just that, a way to release my stress. XD then, you will go all blaming yourself, wanting to talk, scolding, and undergoes depression. i felt guilty as this is my problem. sometimes, i think it's cause by the period of time we were together. i'm still loyal to you and NO, i don't have a third party in our relationship. for this, i can assure you. in conclusion, i didn't know what to do or what to say. well, i just wanna say i'm sorry and i know i'm a sucky girlfriend at times. but, everyone has their flaws right? :) since i already say til here, well, just wanna let you know, your action do trigger my anger at times. no matter what, i still love you like i always do. <3

well, i don't know if you guys will understand about the feeling i'm having that got me into confusion, frustration, and aggression. XD just that, appreciate what we have before it's too late to regret. appreciate one's good side than the flaws they have. i know it has been a long post, so i'll stop here.

2009-03-15T01:54:00.002+08:00

almost all my mid term tests are done. i guess i left one chemistry paper and it will be easy. :) sweet. i think i might fail psychology and calculus. :S i don't wanna fail, please pray hard for me.

anyway, SPM results were out. i'm a little disappointed in my results. people says that my results are good but i'm not quite satisfied about it. it's not that i'm trying to show off, but my results was a little off track from my aim. but, what's done is done, let bygones be bygones. moving forward, do well in college and not let my parents down again. the good thing is, my dad didn't sound that disappointed this time. not like the time when i got my PMR results, he almost make my tears come rolling down.

Howard and i went to Putrajaya and Cyberjaya just now. our intention was to see the stars but, it was raining. all we saw was one big piece of cloudy dark sky with NO stars. haha! we actually decided to cancel our plan and head to the club, but he didn't want to as he's afraid he might not be able to take care of me. plus, it was a last minute decision and didn't know who to call. additional to that, we didn't bring sufficient money. so, we just stick to our initial plan. wondering why we wanna go there? that place is so quiet, windy, nice and quiet. hahaha! it was so quiet until you can stop your car in the middle of the road anytime you want or you can just stop your car at the side of the road and go for a nice, long, satisfying sex with no worries that someone might catch you! haha. i guess i just made a suggestion for people. ;) so, we just turn around in that area, not knowing where were we as we're lost. making lots of phone calls to ask for directions. finally, we reached the nice, beautiful bridge where many people stopped to take some shots. we didn't stay long there as the time was already quite late. we were lost and it took us quite some time to turn around that place to look for one bridge. haha! because of the time we wasted turning around in that two cities, i guess we'll be going again sometime soon.

i gotta turn in now. my eye bags are making my face looking worse than before. everyone is having their term break but not me, (T.T) i really need a good rest. so that's for my update. the photos will be uploaded soon. peace out!

2009-03-09T00:23:00.000+08:00

i really hate this feeling!

2009-02-27T23:29:00.012+08:00

hello, everyone! yes i'm still alive and i know my blog is kinda dead. i'm so filled up with assignments and stalking other people's blog til i forgotten i have a blog to update. or maybe is just because i'm lazy. :P

i guess i'll just upload photos in this post as an update.

i'm a Chelsea supporter. Man United can go suck cock!

i love taking pictures of the sky.

i dined in Michelangelo's and Ole-ole Bali. both of them suck!

i went Jaya One to drink imported beers. it's freaking expensive but it's not my bill. :)

now i understand why adults love drinking. i've been drinking a lot as in like every week lately.

i don't really enjoy my college life because i miss my crazy high school life. :(

other than disliking my life in college, i hate psychology too. it's driving me nuts with all the stupid freaking biology facts. fuck that. moreover, the assignments. recently, i got an interesting assignment. i'm currently researching on the benefits of sex. oooooo lalala~

my house floods when there happens to be a non-stop heavy rain.

i went Station 1 the other day and there were this duo group called 'Man Jiang Hong' or '满江宏', which was celebrity came to promote their album. i sat on the table right in front of the stage. sad to say, i don't even know them! it was pretty embarrassing actually because there were quite a lot of fans there. i bought their album for only RM 25 with free poster with autographs and on the CD as well. it might worth a million next time, who knows? XD

lastly, i fell much more deeper in love with this guy right here!

宝贝，
你明天就要去考你的TOEFL了哦。宝宝不要紧张而搞得自己烦 k? 我知道你已经很努力了，所以我会为你加油！对不起应为我帮不到你什么，我只能支持你。我祝宝贝明天一切顺利！love you much. apuciu~!

2009-02-10T22:02:00.004+08:00

i'm back real fast this time. well, this post is for Sean. :)

i'm sorry i couldn't make it to the airport. i have to go to the temple as it's on the 15th and my dad doesn't allow me to skip the prayers. anyhow, you're coming back on the June definitely and i guess i could send you off the time if it doesn't clash with anything. :)

sorry for not hanging with you lately. we became like strangers now. i have been busy with my assignments and i guess you are too, busy with your application and work. :) i really miss the times when we were in high school where we get to go to your house for tuition and all, tease you at your house and also in school about the PAKI. XD really miss those times where the guys pull you towards her desk! haha! not to forget, your monotonous voice is so sexy which attracted the PAKI that we manage to get into top 10 in Acmar Idol. :) wonder how she's doing? college life sucks without you and Jay Min. seriously. yes Jay, i kinda miss you too.

sorry bout the day i'm late. you told me you will be late too, and you changed the time without telling me. i need to find the stupid parking all the way to First Avenue and turned back in One Utama New Wing for an hour, bravo. next time, please don't go anywhere if it's on a Sunday. i don't mind sitting down, hanging around in a restaurant or cafe nearby Klang.

i do hope the 3 of us get to spend lotsa time together when you are back. just like old times...:) i wouldn't mind fetching you guys as i always do. alright that's bout it. take care in Melbourne!

P/S : i miss my high school life....

2009-02-08T11:45:00.002+08:00

i know i haven't been updating lately. i'm sorry for the delays. so, i'll talk about my college life first. :)

i didn't update anything about college yet. so, i took Psychology 105, Calculus 1, Chemistry 151, English 101, and Malaysian studies. Psychology is something like Biology, but it's way more interesting. as you guys know, i kinda hate Biology, but i enjoyed Psychology and i don't know why. next is Calculus 1, and it's Add Maths standard currently. well, i suck in Add Maths but i manage to do well in here and i don't know why. as for Chemistry, it's a Form 4 and Form 5 syllabus. it's very easy and the lab sessions are pretty fun. Malaysian studies sucks as i never listen to what the lecturer taught for like 2 months already. i'm forced to take this subject due to the scholarship. wonder what subject is this? is History in English, but we study more in here.

so that's about my subject. now, to my mates i made in college. January intake people are all nerds i can say. but luckily for me, i managed to find some friends that wants to study hard and party harder! haha. so we hang out every time we're in college. Jie Yong and i became closer i guess, as we have the same class for Malaysian studies. Kyle made a bunch of friends like him. so i seldom joined him as our timetable is not the same for some subjects. the mates i usually joined are guys because the girls there are nerds!

that's bout my college life and as for my working life, i've stopped working due to some conflicts and misunderstanding. what for continuing working when you are so unhappy about it? who would ever thought this thing would happened and boss only hear from one side and not the other. i wouldn't go far from here coz' there's no point saying anything right now. people see us like we're using YOU as a back up as we're close to YOU. if YOU do know, we never ever once did that. but one thing i can tell YOU, boss didn't want us to work there because he didn't want to let YOU know anything that had happened in there. all the staffs there claimed that anything that had happened in the shop and YOU know about it, it's always from us. even though i feel unhappy while i worked there, but i do enjoy it at the same time. i would say thanks for the experience i get from there. lesson : it is best not to work with someone that owns the place that you are close with.

i guess that's about it. i got to go for my bath as i'm going to Sean's gathering as he is flying off to Australia tomorrow. :)

2009-01-25T23:53:00.007+08:00

GONG XI FA CAI

these 7 gods will bring good fortune for you.

i here wish all my friends a very happy chinese new year!

may happiness always be by your side and may all worries be blown away by the wind!

2009-01-06T17:22:00.001+08:00

喜歡和愛咫尺千里。

當你喜歡一個人時，你想和他在一起，因為他會帶給你快樂；

離開後，你會想念，想著想著就會笑，然後繼續你平靜的生活，並期待著與他再一次重逢。

當你愛一個人時，你想和他在一起，那是一種牽腸掛肚的捨不得，怕他受委屈，怕他不能好好照顧自己；

離開後，你也會想念，想著想著歎一口氣，'不知他現在過的怎樣？'

然後你繼續你平靜的生活，希望他早日回到你身邊。

你喜歡的人在你眼中是天使，無所不能，他總會滿足你的任性的要求。

你愛的人在你眼中是孩子，傻傻的，你不期望他做出什麼'好事'來，只一味縱容他那些讓人哭笑不得的舉動。

你會希望你喜歡的人陪著你，然而你心中想的可能是你愛的人；

你會希望陪在你愛的人身邊，看他在你面前睡得如此安逸甜美毫不設防的樣子，你會微笑，會覺得好幸福。

你喜歡的人傷害了你，你會生氣，並且一定要讓他哄著騙著逗你笑你才原諒他；

你愛的人傷害了你，你只會獨自傷心，因為你怕對他大吼大叫會嚇著他，你憂傷地微笑著，看著他的眼睛，

一旦發現他的眼裡流露出歉意和悔恨，你會立即心疼地摟他在懷裡，那一刻，你也是幸福的。

你可以同時喜歡很多人，你會希望和很多人在一起，但也許很多年後你才發現，原來你愛的就只有那麼一個，就那麼一個，怎麼都不會變，你以為把他忘記了，其實只是忙的沒空想起而已，

對於你喜歡的人，你關注的是他的優點；

對於你愛的人，你關注的是他的缺點，並且，那些缺點如果無關原則的話，它們在你眼裡是可愛的，獨一無二的。

喜歡和愛其實只有一紙之隔，任何愛都從喜歡開始，當有天你突然發現，你喜歡的那個人在你眼中不再完美，而他的瑕疵正如月中的桂影一般讓你更加依依不捨，你會覺得與他光彩照人的一面相比,你更願意看他在你面前無助的表情，不知道是不是應該祝賀你，總之，你的感情昇華了—

仰慕不是愛，甚至不是喜歡，當你對一個人只有仰慕之情時，你們在一起便失去了和諧。

有人說愛一個人很累，的確是，因為你想為他承擔，可是愛與喜歡相比最大的魅力就在於，當你和愛的人在一起時，你的感覺就像回家了！

2009-01-04T22:45:00.004+08:00

sorry for the lack of updates. college life is starting tomorrow. i'm pissed with the fucking timetable. it will make me start scolding non-stop. it's so fucking stupid, and why is that so? let me tell you.

on Tuesday and Wednesday, my class starts at 8am. well, i don't mind starting that class early. but HELLO, i have 6 hours break after an hour of class and continuing my class after that freaking 6 hours. come on! i study til 6pm on Wednesday and i have that fucking 6 hours in between. and ya know what, i need to study everyday and Kyle gets Friday off. fucking lady at the fucking office, FUCK YOU!

see i told you. i can start scolding and no stopping. i can still continue but i'll leave my post with more decent words. :) so, i didn't blog about my Christmas Day, my Christmas Eve, my New Year, and my New Year Eve. well, i worked on Christmas eve night. i do enjoy my night til someone went drunk and spoilt the night. everything was nice on Christmas Day except for Teck Loong that woke me up early in the morning to eat Bah Kut Teh. then, we went over to Pyramid to buy my babe's present. i spent my night with Teck Loong, Yi Xia and Howard in Setia Alam eating steamboat buffet. i really enjoyed that night.

as for New Year's eve, i enjoyed too with my babe and Teck Loong. why Teck Loong became the lamp post? it's because if i didn't call him out, he will be spending the night sleeping at home. his gay partner Yi Xia dump him for another bunch of gays. XD so we went over to Central to meet up with Darwin, my sister and their friends. got a lot of things from lucky draw coz' we've got like god knows how many tickets we have there. had fun that night.

as for the gathering, well, nothing much happened. drank a little alcohol when Kian How came. i didn't get any pictures from them yet so i won't be posting up any. on Saturday i went for the Orientation Day which is pretty sucky. haha! i guess that's about it. gotta turn in now to conserve my energy to have war with the advisor tomorrow morning. night night!

2009-01-03T23:18:00.003+08:00

i didn't blog anything about my 2008 life. :S couldn't believe myself leaving my blog without updating for more than a week. well, let's go venture my 2008.

MY 2008 ADVENTURE

I got my driving license.

I joined a marathon.

I joined Acmar Idol.

I was buried under the sand for the first time.

I wore Saree for the first time.

I solved the Rubik's cube for the first time.

AND

I enjoyed my last high school year with my peeps.

lastly, we're still going on strong! :)

i'm so gonna miss 2008. well, do hope my 2009 would be as great as 2008. enjoy your year!

2008-12-23T00:45:00.004+08:00

i'm sorry for the late updates. it's either i'm busy or just lazy to come online. :)

i went to Genting last week and i had some fun there with my friends. not to forget Howard. actually i spent most of my time with Howard coz' the friends that i go with is pretty selfish. haha! they don't wake you up for breakfast, they don't call you if they are going anywhere, and they sleep almost the whole day. so, me and Howard just spent our time shopping and playing! well, i'll upload the pictures!

so we went there by bus then cable car. i overcome my fear for heights a little. haha!

we stayed 2 nights in First World Hotel. checking in the hotel takes hours. we waited for like 400 people to reach the number for checking in.

we started playing on the second day! :)

ready to go for the Flying Coaster ride. i sat 2 times for this ride.

down from the ride. :)

Soon Leong, Howard and me went to this Space Shot ride, these few people include Yi Ling and Karen, they chicken out! haha. i actually chicken out after i went up. i'm afraid of heights tho. after all, the ride was OK. these 3 people went up to this Ferris Wheel just opposite the Space Shot. waved at us while we were up there. -.-'

everyone of them went back to the hotel room to sleep while me and Howard, continued playing and shopping!

well, didn't really take much photos. :) most of the photos are only me and Howard. haha! we two really shop til we drop. both of us spent like RM 400 up there. hotel room not included. so overall, we spent around RM 800. but, we had fun up there!

got to turn in now. more updates coming soon. need to work tomorrow morning. chaoz!

2008-12-10T01:25:00.002+08:00

i bet this video will make the guys go nose bleeding. XD

WARNING : THIS VIDEO MIGHT NOT BE SUITABLE FOR MINORS!!

guys, you can go masturbate now. :)

2008-12-09T02:22:00.004+08:00

i'm kinda lazy, tired and sleepy actually. since i'm already online, so i just blog. just now, my whole family went over to Subang USJ to have our dinner. we had Korean food and it was nice. :) well, let the pictures do the talk. i'm pretty tired.

the restaurant

the side dishes

stone rice? that's what they call it in Chinese, just a direct translation. haha! i don't know what you call that in English.

i tell you, this noodle is really good. gosh~

and these are some random photos. Howard wanted to try out my handphone's camera settings. -.-'
didn't take much photos coz' i was busy eating. :P hehe. want to know where this place is, take me along with you. i show you the place. well, guess that's bout it. nitezZz

2008-12-07T02:13:00.002+08:00

just came back from work. well, i can say working had been really fun. :) to tell the truth, this is my first time working. swear to god, i'm not lying! working in Denny's is nice. get to know new friends, and most importantly i've learnt a lot from there. even though i just started working, but i've learnt a lot. i guess that's call independent.

a lot of problems happened lately. well, i guess i'm not going to go any further on that. it's pretty disappointing and angry. we couldn't do anything, can we? the person that cause all these doesn't think that it's wrong, and claims everything that she does is right. well, congrats on that. keep up the good work. i know YOU do read my blog, just something for you to know, don't you ever let me see that son of a bitch.

let's not spoil this post coz' of that son of a bitch. good news for me, i've been awarded a scholarship from Inti College. it's just a small scholarship and i'm pretty happy already. haha! i'm not trying to boast or anything alright? i'm not like Sean, getting all so hyped up and show off til to the school. haha!

well, that's bout it. i guess i'll blog lesser as i'm working already. it's pretty tiring. OKAY, that's all. off to sleep! zzZzzzzzZZz

2008-12-05T00:56:00.003+08:00

so, i've got the photos from the outing. :) enjoy!

these are the bunch of people that went. :) excluding Howard, he's the photographer in here. i know some of the faces are blocked, but at least you can see me can already. haha!

then, went over to Sean's mum shop and spent lots of time there. you guys should go and try. it's right opposite Cold Storage in the new building at the lower ground floor. go have a try!

then, we go over to the bowling alley. spent our time there. well, photos are in facebook. i'm kinda lazy to copy and upload. just go find them there. those that are not in facebook are over here. not all actually, only a few. haha! came out from the bowling alley, spent time taking photos.

and the guys played the love machine thingy. don't know what's that piece of crap called.

went A&W to eat with the Shah Alam people. haha! Klang people went back Klang to eat. hehe. got myself a Rubik's cube and loving it. :) it's fun to play.

anyway, that's bout it. will blog again soon. chaoz! working tomorrow.

2008-12-03T17:05:00.002+08:00

sorry for the late updates. had been really tired, busy or just lazy to blog. hehe. do forgive me la! i'm enjoying my freedom. :)

on Monday, after some nerds finished their Accounts paper, we went over to One Utama. nothing much happened there as we don't know what to do over there. spent our time in Molten Lava and bowling alley. some went to the arcade. well, took photos here and there. while, i'll upload some soon. my blog has been really dull. gotta lighten it up soon.

on the same day, i was busy too. my schedule went an hour late due to this smart ass whose name is Howard, came late to my house. so everything went an hour late. i went to school to make my forecast result. then, rushed to Subang to register into college. anyone entering Inti College, please let me know. i can get RM 500 reward, and i can split with you. please let me know, and i will tell you the date to register so that we can get the reward together. OK?

well, guess that's about it. :) more updates soon if i have the time. chaoz!

2008-11-28T18:32:00.004+08:00

sorry for not updating even though my SPM's over. i was kinda lazy and there's too much to blog and i don't know what to blog. :)

papers were OK. been partying alot during and after the test. sweeet! haha! too much to blog. is just that, I LOVE MY FWENS! now that school's over, i'm gonna miss you guys like hell loads. so after my last paper, we went to catch a movie. Madagascar 2 was it. it was really funny and i recommend everyone to watch that show. it's a MUST WATCH movie. got back home, my throat hurts even more coz' i laughed too much in the cinema.

cancel my KTV night coz' i couldn't sing with my voice and throat like that. :S guess, will be postponed till next week. coming up event is on Monday, after Accounts paper and off we go to One U. i'll be busy on that day. well, guess that is it.

oh ya, one more thing. i'll be working soon. yesh, me working on the December. :) in Denny n' Partners cafe. if you guys are wondering where is this, well, is actually behind Central. if you still don't know where, just call me la! come find me if you guys want but give me a call first. so if you guys have any upcoming events, please let me know early so i can adjust my shift. alright, that's bout it. got to go! all the best to the people who are taking Accounts!

2008-11-13T23:16:00.002+08:00

so, one week of SPM is over! which means, no more BM and Malaysian/Islam history in my life anymore. burn all the books! :) yes yes yes!! sweeet~

it felt like SPM is over after the Sejarah 2 paper. coming up subjects that will kill my brain cells are Add Maths and Moral. well, do hope i can do it well. 4 subjects down, 6 more to go. 1 week gone, 2 more weeks to continue. couldn't wait til it's over.

countdown to freedom : 12 days to go....

2008-11-10T15:16:00.002+08:00

at last, the day for war for all Form 5s' starts tomorrow. wish each and everyone of you all the best and good luck!!

countdown to freedom : 14 days

2008-11-07T00:55:00.002+08:00

Give me more loving than I’ve ever had
Make me feel better when I’m feeling sad
Tell me I’m special even when I know I’m not
Make it feel good when it hurts so bad
Barely get mad
I’m so glad I found you
I love being around you
You make it easy

It's as easy as 1-2-1-2-3-4
There’s only
ONE thing
TWO do
THREE words
FOUR you...
I love you
There’s only
ONE way
TWO say
Those THREE words
And that’s what I’ll do...
I love you

Give me more loving from the very start
Piece me back together when I fall apart
Tell me things you never even tell your closest friends
Make it feel good when it hurts so bad
You’re the best that I’ve had
And I’m so glad I found you
I love being around you
You make it easy

It's as easy as 1-2-1-2-3-4
There's only
ONE thing
TWO do
THREE words
FOUR you...
I love you
There's only
ONE way
TWO say
Those THREE words
And that's what I'll do...
I love you
I love you

You make it easy
It's as easy as 1-2-1-2-3-4
There's only
ONE thing
TWO do
THREE words
FOUR you...
I love you
There's only
ONE way
TWO say
Those THREE words
And that's what I'll do...
I love you
I love you
1-2-3-4
I love you
I love you

Plain White T's - 1, 2, 3, 4

2008-11-03T00:42:00.002+08:00

this is my MSN display picture. and guess what Darwin said about it?

Darwin says:
the pic u having there

Darwin says:
like u licking his nipple

WTF?! nice one you ass! haha! anyway, SPM is in ONE week time. so, i'm gonna be busy nerding. after that, i'm gonna go crazy for few months. so til then!

2008-10-31T00:10:00.003+08:00

SPM is nearing. it's about less than 2 weeks and i'm still laid back. :S WTF?! *&^%$#@ i really got to start concentrating on my studies! arghh! anyway, had been sleeping very late these days. nope, not studying. some problems that's all.

if you guys watched Discovery Channel, i bet you heard of their song. i really love the song. :)

the world is just awesome!

just post it up to relieve the stress of people who have been nerding much lately. haha! my blog will be dead for some time, so til next time! enjoy the video!

I LOVE THE WHOLE WORLD~
IT'S SUCH A BRILLIANT PLACE!
BOOM BE YA DA BOOM BE YA DA!

2008-10-19T01:17:00.008+08:00

this post is about a good friend of mine. his name is Lee Jay Min. so, here it goes.

i knew Jay Min better when i was 15. we became good friends since then.

he likes break dancing as you can see. :)

it was his birthday last Friday. a bunch of us gave him a surprise in the morning of his birthday. we ordered a fruit cake, pakat-ed with his mum, and brought the cake to his house. too much to talk about the surprise. guess, i'll do some talking and the rest, i leave it to the photos to do the talking for me.

there were supposed to be more people but they got pussy-fied and dare not skip school. so, only 11 of us went over to Jay Min's house. then, it all started at 10am. his mum told us that he woke up already and alone at home. so we rang the doorbell and everyone hid after ringing the doorbell.

it was pretty fun. few minutes later, there comes the birthday boy!

that cake was freshly out from oven. when Sean and i went and picked up that cake, the baker was still doing the final touching. :) so, it was really fresh and nice.

Jay Min told me the other day that he didn't want to imagine his friends that will be one by one leaving overseas soon for further studies. he's pretty sad about it. well, hope this year's birthday will leave you a memory you will always remember! hope you like what we did Jay!

there's alot to talk about him. if i'd to continue, it will be a very long post and you guys will be tired of reading. so, til then! ;P

2008-10-17T00:48:00.003+08:00

i would like to share some videos with everyone. it didn't stop me from laughing my ass out even though i've been watching for like trillion times.

WARNING : Be prepared for stomach cramps.

Executive Spa - Who Are You?

there's more from them. just go YouTube and type in comedy court. a list of their videos will be shown. click on every video they have there. you might laugh til the next decade. XD it really will brighten up your day!

Executive Spa - Phone Call 18+

Who wants to be a Billionaire

these are some videos from them you can enjoy here. watch more on YouTube. til then, enjoy the videos!

2008-10-14T19:10:00.003+08:00

i'm looking for a RED WIRA that lives around in BAYU. let me know if you saw one. it's modified into like one lala car. trying to be a sport car. the driver is an Indian lady but it might be driven by some other people. i don't know the number plate so if you guys see this car around Klang, please notify me.

2008-10-13T01:10:00.006+08:00

i left out an update that i promised to post. i was supposed to post about my date with my boyfriend like last few weeks? haha! i forgotten when, but i remembered about this post when i looked back at the pictures.

so, Howard and i went over to Damansara. he said he will bring me to a place where there is nice cupcakes. OK, we went. and we search for this stupid shop for like half an hour. Howard kept saying it's nearby, and kept calling people to ask about the whereabouts of the shop. so we turn and turn and turn and turn around that place. i can't even understand the map in here.

i can see that the shop is actually facing the road in the map. there is this ~~smart~~ genius with the name Howard claimed it is behind the front row. so, we're like morons turning and turning. in the end, i found it! yes, i instead of we. haha! the smart and sexy one. :P we passed by for several times and we missed it.

at last we reached that place! wohoooooo~ so we settled down in there and bought some cupcakes before we spent more money to buy more. it wasn't as big as i expected. haha!

it's small and expensive, RM 4.50 each. it's nice and this pig ate up all of it.

we could have taken more pictures IF it's not because of this pig. i reminded him to charge his camera battery. typical guy, they cannot be count on. he forgotten to charge after reminding him for days. luckily, the day before, i did charge my own camera but i did used for the day. left a short battery life-span, we only managed to take these few photos. so enjoy the photos. haha!