it's Saturday and it's a holiday. this time i should still be sleeping but i'm already awake. guess what? for the first time, i'm stuck at home because i've got nowhere to go. :( mum said the kids are coming over later. gosh, they are going to tear down the house and is there anyone out there to save me? how i wish i'm now in Subang so that i can go find my silly gang of friends! haha!

sis is coming back later with an Indon friend and i wonder who is that. that friend will be staying in my house. well, gonna be a hell of a party tonight! well, i hope tonight my cousins could save me and take me out!

gotta go find food now. i'm hungry~ again, Happy Deepavali guys!

my sis came back just now and brought back the old laptop. she just said, 'nah.' well, i supposed she's returning it back. it's good to have a laptop now but there's nothing in this crap. well, my mum said she wanted to buy me a new one the other day and i hope she buys it. :) i told her sis gave me this back so...let's just hope. if not, i'll work on this crap.

anyway, as you can see i've deleted my previous post. well, it's not really appropriate coz' it was a mistake. i shouldn't have done that out of anger. anger mislead people. :S well, of course, i would like to apologize to Howard for that. and to my friends, don't worry about me. i'm fine. i'll keep all of you updated because i'll have more time now!

Happy Deepavali my friends!

it's 4.20 am and i couldn't sleep. i guess my biological clock is messed up again.

anyway, i'm having a 1 week holiday for raya! i heard that other programmes only have like 2 days of holidays and that sucks! :) of course there are pros and cons. i get to chill more and not think about calculus 2 for a week which is part of the pros. in otherwise, i'll forget every shit of it which will kill me when class starts. and, i have to cramp everything old and new together when class starts. not to forget, i'm in short semester this term which i have to cramp 4 months of work into 2 months. imagine that. CALCULUS 2 IS KILLING ME! arghh~ cons are more than the pros. dang! if you think secondary add maths is tough, try taking up US engineering studies which require you to go til CALCULUS 3. good thing about US studies is, you study everything through the concept and not spoon fed like what Malaysia is doing to the students. you gotta move your brain a little and most importantly, TEAMWORK! :) so eventually at the end of the day, you know what you have studied and how to apply it and use it.

alright, i'm crapping too much. college life is getting better. and ya, good thing about US studies, you know everyone in the programme! each and everyone of us will somehow meet each other in at least ONE class. different background, different countries, different culture, different age group. THAT ROCKS! so, you get lots of friends from many different kind of places. for me, i know people from almost all over Malaysia. yeap~ right up to Sabah and Sarawak. i also know people from China, India, Mongolia, Indonesia,...and couldn't recall anymore. i haven't met a Korean yet, but there are lots of Koreans in INTI.

so if you any Form 5-mers that actually read my dead blog want to know more about US studies, i suggest you INTI College. it's not because i'm from there, it's because of the standard which you will be shocked. if you do not know, INTI is the first ranking transfer rate. the choices for colleges are so wide and colleges which has ranking in US like Embry-Riddle, Purdue University, is also linked. just that, your CGPA have to reach to a standard of 3.0-3.5 which you can go commit suicide. XD and the fees are way cheaper than Taylor's ADP. no offence, it's the fact!

i'm like promoting INTI. haha! my point is, INTI had given me a great college experience. :) i guess that's bout it. will continue a long, boring post again soon. and it's almost to 5 am. so, good morning!

everything has changed.
i don't know when, and i don't know how.
it got from bad to worse, and from worse to worst.
it was the look and the actions of yours..
i know that look.
i know i never once had that look of yours onto me before,
never before.
i knew it was different,
and it will be different from that moment.

my heart was shattered where a gentle touch could turn into dust,
instead of a touch,
you gave me a stab where you put in phrases,
which you made me bleed deeply inside,
while i'm crying deeply hard inside and nobody knew.
no one. not even YOU.
that stab,
didn't crush my shattered heart.
guess what?
it's bleeding, and still bleeding.
drop by drop, seconds by seconds,
strong to weak, filled to empty,
that stab, broke me.
it proves to me today,
that IT'S OVER.

- [ h o w y ] - Everything says:
god barking just now

- [ l i n c z e ] - cause you're my everything.. says:
god barking just now?
hahahahXD

- [ h o w y ] - Everything says:
dog..

- [ l i n c z e ] - cause you're my everything.. says:
hehehe
god barking just now

- [ h o w y ] - Everything says:
....
if god can bark

- [ l i n c z e ] - cause you're my everything.. says:
hehehe

- [ h o w y ] - Everything says:
i must be in heaven edi

LOL. that's what you get when you tend to type too fast. XD

i'm on my second week of holiday. i don't know why i don't blog much nowadays, unlike before. whenever i have free time, i would just blog. i think i rant too much. anyway, i took my nap for too long just now and i couldn't sleep now. since i'm very much awake and everyone is asleep, and i'm so free because Benjamin dump me, so here goes an update!

i just came to realise that i didn't blog about Howard's 21st birthday. -.- i'm sorry! i've forgotten about it til i went through my folders. anyway, his birthday was a small one among few of his close friends. many couldn't make it coz' it was a last minute call. specially my stupid cousins. so, i kinda made some plans with his friend. i told them to lie to him that they aren't free that night and gave him a surprise in the end. it worked out and he was happy. he didn't even realise i went missing for 20 minutes to prepare. birthday song was up, and there we go!

the birthday boy

21 muffins

FYI, i bake the muffins myself with the help from a friend of mine! :) thanks Adrian! i now realise the fun of baking. i'm persuading my mum to get an oven and i guess she's gonna get one soon. GREAT! then, i'll bake and bake and bake.


i guess that's about it. :) just some quick update bout me. i'm going kite flying a lot lately and play poker in facebook frequently too. haha! kinda addicted to this two now. more updates will be up soon. starting to feel a little sleepy now. but before i end i wanna say...


...happy 3rd anniversary. :) we've been through 3 years now and going into our fourth year! im glad to have you around me. i'm sorry to have hurt you lately and i regretted for doing so. but no matter what, i love you! <3 there's still more for me to say but here is just parts of it. i'll do it in one full post another time.

it's been 2 days. i miss you!

it's August. time flies so fast. :) finals are gonna over soon, and HOLIDAYS are here! partay partay partay! can't wait.

anyhoos, nothing much happened lately. it's just that, i'm into kite flying lately. come on, Bukit Tinggi, full of kites up above the sky lately. the other day, our homemade kite dropped onto someone's antenna. it's not that i have no skills, it's just that the kite is fly up fast, drop down even faster. i've tried my best to pull back my kite, but i'm not fast enough. kite flying from that day onwards proven to me that it's way harder than when i go fishing. however, the next day we went back to check on the kite, it's gone. i think people took it already. anyway, i bought a bat shaped kite. so it's like BATMAN in the sky. just that it's orange. XD


not to forget, i had a trial case for my politic class. even though the professor is giving me hell lots of pain in the arse, but thinking back, it's quite fun! our case was about Satanism and my role was a nosy neighbour of the prosecutor. i do hope i can pass this subject cause i kinda get kinda low marks in my coursework. :S


last but not least, i received my scholarship certificate already! :) after so long, finally! didn't manage to see Daniel Bego. Daniel Bego is studying in Inti College under sports scholarship. he was in Rome for competition when he's supposed to be getting his certificate in Inti. well, i'll have the chance to see him some other day.


guess that's bout it. guitar exam in another 2 weeks. :) bye!